if you see me leave early
or hesitate to make eye contact
if i seem reticent to express too much affection
that’s just me trying not to fall in love again
if i appear caught up in my head
stuck between worlds and moments
afraid of my deepest self and its desires
that’s just me trying not to fall in love again
if i make my boundaries more rigid
less porous or open and fluid
if i express love like i would to a cousin or brother
that’s me trying to make sure i don’t fall in love again
–BYPO PHOENIX c)2020
