addiction

  • IS DEPRESSION A FORM OF ADDICTION?

    IS DEPRESSION A FORM OF ADDICTION?

    Earlier this week an unusual line of analysis came through me. I started to wonder if addiction might be a…

  • MAELSTROM: relapse and recovery

    MAELSTROM: relapse and recovery

    Recovery is deep workNot a linear process Old clusters of feeling reemergeFeelings too painful to processFar too painful to share…

  • PROPHET OF GRUNGE

    PROPHET OF GRUNGE

    The alchemy of art and painFlowed in the lyrics of Kurt CobainHe was a friend I never knewA man with…

  • RIDE OR DIE

    RIDE OR DIE

    Our scriptures are boldBut barely touch the surfaceOur bond profoundOur chemistry insurgent Your friendship has transformed meYou’ve poured your heart…

  • CELEBRATION

    CELEBRATION

    This is a letterA letter to my dear friendMy spirit brotherMy accomplice and protege We have transformed one anotherOur connection…

  • FOREVER YOUNG

    FOREVER YOUNG

    Time is daunting Drugs no longer please Forever young What I once wished to be Hurt left unspokenAgony in my eyesUnmanageable emotionsDrove me…

  • DEVOTION

    DEVOTION

    Our chemistry magneticOur style fierce and eclecticOur minds telekineticForging a lineage prophetic This bond awakens emotionsThis deep pulse of devotionWe…

  • QUANTUM MINDS

    QUANTUM MINDS

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  • GOTHBOY LEGACY

    GOTHBOY LEGACY

    Eyes of painChained to addictionYou died so youngLeaving us with your vision Your music was iconicReconfiguring genresYou carved a tortured…

  • NEXT LEVEL GRATITUDE

    NEXT LEVEL GRATITUDE

    Until we need it mostWe often do not know how blessed we are I could easily have been killed on…

  • TATTOOED QUEER

    TATTOOED QUEER

        This is a poemAbout an enigmaA mystery tattooed in blood You are goneYou can no longer speak your…

  • ALCHEMY OF ART AND PAIN

    ALCHEMY OF ART AND PAIN

      These tears we let flowThrough art we createFeeling painful emotionsThat we no longer sedate Loving to numbGetting high was…

  • MORE THAN A SPONSOR

    MORE THAN A SPONSOR

      You’re not just my friendMy sponsor or my mentorA trifecta of different rolesDiverse to your very core Vessel of…

  • MANIC DEMONS

    MANIC DEMONS

      These highs like cocaine I reject emotional painMy brain got that fix Appearance flaunted in vain Reckless impulsivity Believing myself a higher…

  • CHRYSALIS

    CHRYSALIS

      This is a poem about maniaThe pain of changeThe agony of the caterpillarDissolving to become a butterfly This chrysalis…

  • ANGEL PHOENIX PROPHECY: chronicles of new york

    ANGEL PHOENIX PROPHECY: chronicles of new york

      Words fail to describeThis manic energy we feelStepping off of that busEnraptured by the gravity of Gotham This is…

  • KALEIDOSCOPE EYES

    KALEIDOSCOPE EYES

    Your manic eyesOur manic mindsEvolving geniusPsychotic disguise We throb and danceRhythm deep withinThese sparks againArising for the win Inspiring insightManifesting…

  • MANIC ORACLE

    MANIC ORACLE

      Tonight I seek guidanceI yearn to knowTo see where I endTo know where you begin I strive to guide…

  • DISSECTING REJECTION

    DISSECTING REJECTION

      I am a lonely soulHeartbeat slow and coldIn my rejection I am aloneToxic fear holds the throne We write…

  • SACRED LINEAGE

    SACRED LINEAGE

    You are my protegeMy sponsee and my friendAbsorbing your magnetic chemistryI feel fierce pride We are a zeitgeistEvolving a lineageCrafting…

  • JOY EXTINGUISHED: eulogy for Gus

    JOY EXTINGUISHED: eulogy for Gus

    Your voice propheticYour spirit magneticGoth boy fireYour energy electric I look you in your eyesLike I know your painToxins flood…

  • WEAPON OF LIBERATION

    WEAPON OF LIBERATION

    You were in the world but not of itYou told of awful thingsYou created from a cradle of painA dad…

  • RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

    RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

      I am hereI should have died I jumped from Key BridgePlummeting into the Potomac RiverThere was ice in the…

  • DISCO NOBILITY

    DISCO NOBILITY

    We floss and flexWe rise and grindReinventing timeRealigning our minds We share the work of recoveryI feel this fierce prideLoving…

  • SHAMANIC

    SHAMANIC

    In this spaceOn this landEnergy flows through meMagic transpires I write in the dark of nightAmidst the rhythms of rainShamanic…

  • DREAMER BOY

    DREAMER BOY

    , When I see youI see nascent joyChained by webs of self-deception When I hear your voiceSometimes I hear honesty…