In this moment, I am a hot mess of regret, anxiety, and desire
With boundaries collapsed I don’t know how to recompartmentalize
I don’t know what to think or believe about my inner self
I struggle alone at night: mourning the passing of a dearly held aspiration
But I don’t want to be a slave to my sexuality: a vessel manipulated by rival substances permeating my mind and body
I am moving towards acceptance that we may not touch that way again
I pray that we can move forward into a place of loving friendship and inner strength
I pray for peace, love, and balance as we navigate turbulent waters
–first image by @ROLANDOLAVIDA on IG
–second image is a portrait of @sateando by @miguelvillalobosnyc on IG
–BYPO PHOENIX c)2020
