Time is daunting
Drugs no longer please
Forever young
What I once wished to be
Hurt left unspoken
Agony in my eyes
Unmanageable emotions
Drove me back to getting high
Since age 15
I’ve dealt with this disease
Getting clean in my 20’s
A fucking miracle to me
From obsession to surrender
Tantric energy radiates
Relating scarring pasts
Alleviating self hate
I am learning to survive feelings
Gaining the power to trust my mind
There’s beauty in this pain
My transformation, from drunk to wise
We fight this disease
Seeking a new way of life
Rejecting temptations
Embracing our sponsor’s advice
I have evolved in recovery
Learning the meaning of love
Feeling it all—forever young
Liberating my psyche from drugs
–GOTHIC ANGEL c)2025
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I found the lines “Relating scarring pasts; Alleviating self hate” quite comforting. I have come to learn that connection and community are incredibly essential to loving yourself. I also really like “There’s beauty in this pain”, and although the followup line hints that it is speaking of the product or greatness made possible in pain, a part of me believes (or at least wants to believe) that there is still beauty intrinsically in some types of pain, not dependent on the outcome.