alone with my emotions, i am wracked by malaise
i contend with my demons clothed in varied shades of grey
i summon my defenses from near and far away
i imagine a present moment where i don’t yearn for what i crave
after two years living on dopamine, i am due for a course correction
my condition imposes limits on my ability to chart a skyward direction
i seek power from love and friendship, from joy and from affection
i dream of conquering this intrusion of grey and rising above fruitless introspection
this intrusion of grey has cast a spell on my brain
it has left me wrestling with the psychic demons of guilt, shame, and blame
my task is to learn what i can from the repetitious dose of pain
my aspiration is to rise renewed, repairing the rifts in my psychosocial domain
second image is by FAVIANNA RODRIGUEZ >> @favianna
–BYPO PHOENIX c)2018
