Your voice propheticYour spirit magneticGoth boy fireYour energy electric I look you in your eyesLike I know your painToxins flood your veinsSongs of guilt and shame Trying not to cry too loudWeeping in silenceSearing pain in your gutWords to speak like violence Cocaine lined upHiding deadly secretsLonging to be heardYearning […]
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Eyes wide openEyes wide shutYou look deep withinExtending your trust Opening my mind to new cultureTo the zeitgeist of the momentGrounding me in the presentRooted in the path we have chosen I call you gothic angelYou are a protege of prophecyYou churn in potent watersRadiating cosmic chemistry I want to […]
This is raw emotionBarely processed reflexive emotionFeelings swimming amidst violent cliffsLurching in divergent directionsSeeking cathartic expressionSeeking connection We loved youWe loved you fiercelyIf only you could have felt the joy of youThe humility and vulnerabilityThe visceral presence of connection Ultimately there is no logicWe cannot know your final feelingsWe cannot […]
I made this pilgrimageI came to the sea seeking recoveryTo this convening of addictsTrying to change our patternsTrying to recover It is only AprilThe ocean is still coldBut I walked into her arms three times yesterday I waded in with the dawnWatching the sun rise through the lens of a […]
You were a sacrificeAn offering from the sacredA voice for a generationProphet of liberationProphet of yearning I ride by this riverFeeling subterranean vibrationsThis water helps my spirit cryRiver tears of absolution and restitution Black shadow resonatesOn the surface of sacred waterGlistening like onyxA dark mirror for your storyReflecting the toxicity […]
Blue light ricochets through waterCoursing like seismic electricityInvoking cosmic destinyMolding a conjecture with prophecyThis visceral manifestation of what I feel for you You are my sponseeMy karmic protegesConjuring inner magicReverberating like kinetic staticThrough these waters of synergy I believe in our programThis journey of recoveryA migration towards spiritual discoveryFluid […]
I come through sandReverberating with karmic potential I come for the sunRising from beyond the ocean We are survivors of addictionA ruthless afflictionGathered to share our storiesStaying clean one day at a time Our disease is insidiousBrutal and persistent We are forever imperiledVulnerable to seductive allureThe urge to suppress challenging […]
I sit by the water—I came here to writeThe river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energyIt reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mindto write about the social construct known as bipolar disorderThis diagnosis has been an […]
I am evolving and deepening my awareness… With the shackles of addiction in remission I live in gratitude and in joy… I live on the manic depressive spectrum—tending towards states of hypomania and mania… Eliminating the toxicity of substances of abuse has helped me stabilize, but the powers within that […]
here i am–humbly and blissfully imperfectreckoning with harm i have caused by striving to be accountable and doing work to transform i am decentering selfdismantling the illusion of my willful power to control the world around me this is my attempt at surrenderand her matrix of liberation is opening new […]
its hard to be humble when the energy and adrenaline of an action are racing through my veinshard when my brain’s potent dopamine clinic is flying high on overdrive its hard to be humble when visions of fractals or sacred geometry meet my eyesleaving me feeling particularly empowered to participate […]
I am always looking for magicseeking the dilation of time, the deepest enunciation of truth, the most exquisite attenuation of the dancer’s fierce extension I am grateful for all of these momentsgrateful for the magic of the moon and the sunI am grateful for the serenity of silence and […]