toxic emotions

  • SHADOWS OF SHAME

    SHADOWS OF SHAME

    Shame my brotherMy least favorite emotionShadows haunting integrityWebs of mendacityDisguises inauthentic Through years of addictionDeception was second natureParallel strands of…

  • QUANTUM MINDS

    QUANTUM MINDS

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  • GOTHBOY LEGACY

    GOTHBOY LEGACY

    Eyes of painChained to addictionYou died so youngLeaving us with your vision Your music was iconicReconfiguring genresYou carved a tortured…

  • RUPTURE and REPAIR

    RUPTURE and REPAIR

    Friendships are born of loveThey are also born of conflict Your closest people are never yes menYour inner tribe will…

  • UNSETTLING FACES

    UNSETTLING FACES

    Unsettling facesFamiliar truthsFlocks of sheepAnalyzing me I know they judgeTheir eyes tell me soFalse reciprocationCould be so Seeking acceptanceYet quick…

  • DISSECTING REJECTION

    DISSECTING REJECTION

      I am a lonely soulHeartbeat slow and coldIn my rejection I am aloneToxic fear holds the throne We write…

  • RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

    RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

      I am hereI should have died I jumped from Key BridgePlummeting into the Potomac RiverThere was ice in the…

  • EMBODIED VULNERABILITY

    EMBODIED VULNERABILITY

    Connecting with you is like fireGenerativePowerful and movingPulsating with Platonic attractionRemembering what it feels like for a boy We live…

  • GOTHIC ANGEL

    GOTHIC ANGEL

    Eyes wide openEyes wide shutYou look deep withinExtending your trust Opening my mind to new cultureTo the zeitgeist of the…

  • LIBATIONS FOR AN ADDICT

    LIBATIONS FOR AN ADDICT

    This is raw emotionBarely processed reflexive emotionFeelings swimming amidst violent cliffsLurching in divergent directionsSeeking cathartic expressionSeeking connection We loved youWe…

  • RESILIENCE

    RESILIENCE

    I see fire in this paintingStrength born from painI see resilience and perseverance I see the resurgent power of creationPower…

  • REMIND ME TO FORGET

    REMIND ME TO FORGET

    MemoriesHaunting meLeaving meNo air to breathe DestinyMysteryHaunting meTaunting me I come to writeI come to witnessHundreds of birdsFlocking to the…

  • VANGUARD GRAFFITI

    VANGUARD GRAFFITI

    Colors connive as spirits reviveWe are shackled by trauma locked deep insideWe heal from our pasts and rebuild our livesThe…

  • TRIFECTA FIERCE

    TRIFECTA FIERCE

      three sensuous bodies: three celestial auras–we aspire to cosmic connection to honor the rebels who came before us we…

  • TRYING NOT TO FALL

    TRYING NOT TO FALL

    if you see me leave earlyor hesitate to make eye contactif i seem reticent to express too much affectionthat’s just…

  • RADIANT ROOTS

    RADIANT ROOTS

    i imagine myself bathed in lightor held in a luxurious and potent embrace I imagine myself protected by a force…

  • AN INTRUSION OF GREY

    AN INTRUSION OF GREY

    alone with my emotions, i am wracked by malaise i contend with my demons clothed in varied shades of grey…

  • HEXAGONS OF BABYLON

    HEXAGONS OF BABYLON

    hexagons and lexicons digging deep and dropping bombs striving for freedom singing songs crafting a future that is just beyond…

  • GHOSTS:  a riff on the emotional subterranean

    GHOSTS: a riff on the emotional subterranean

    echoes of emotion transgress my heart and mind i feel currents of suppressed attraction in confluence deep inside the erratic…

  • A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

    A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

    its been more than three years since i jumped off key bridge almost ending a life that at the time…

  • KARMIC INSURGENCY

    KARMIC INSURGENCY

    whose streets—our streets so said the cops while suppressing speech black lives on trial—neo-nazis on the rise such a toxic…

  • RITES OF FIRE: pyrotechnic meditation

    RITES OF FIRE: pyrotechnic meditation

    we are slaves to technology—and to the class in control we transcribe a new pedagogy—reclaiming the creative human soul the…

  • RADICAL EXORCISM

    RADICAL EXORCISM

    praying for love and praying for peace praising the sun and craving relief we have miscreants in power—sowing seeds of…

  • KING OF RAGE

    KING OF RAGE

    ANGEL OR DEMON DEVIL OR SAINT YOU TAKE WHAT YOU WANT RAGE RULES YOUR BRAIN LIKE A MONSTER YOU KILL…

  • IMMORTALIZED: a tribute to Gil Scott-Heron

    IMMORTALIZED: a tribute to Gil Scott-Heron

    love and rage took the stage speaking truth eschewing fame inscribing pain abusing veins rebel poet living wraith harlem streets…

  • A MONSTA RIFF

    A MONSTA RIFF

    Monster boy ate my heart Ate my love tore it apart Left me dancing in the dark Bathed in tears…