love and hate

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RED LINE: reflections on resistance to genocide

Genocide in any age is horrifying…for painful months, my outrage has burned–but I had not found time to do more than share posts or talk about the issue in my communities…  On Saturday, June 8th, I was proud to take to the streets… our mobilization attempted to surround the White […]

EMBODIED VULNERABILITY

Connecting with you is like fireGenerativePowerful and movingPulsating with Platonic attractionRemembering what it feels like for a boy We live as menDisconnected from our feelingsDisembodiedEnslaved by subterranean emotions We cover our fear with angerWe ignore deeply rooted shameHiding our insecurities behind feeble facades Repressing our desire for transcendent loveRepressing our […]

WATER KING

I am ensconced in recoveryEmblazoned by surrenderRewired by these watersRivers of transformation flowing together I am the water kingAn aquatic tantric magicianI resurrect ancient prophecyI create my own religion My throne is luminousMy kingdom egalitarianNeurodivergence fuels our purposeWaters of recovery evoke equilibrium Tides of connection surge insideThe river of recovery […]

LIP BLOOD: stories of fire and water

e My lips are a place of deep conditioningMy full Black lipsSo much less perfect than my white father’sSo much uglier than those of my white cousinsI love them nowBut once they were a psychic scar At age ten I learned to hold them pursedLike a precocious supermodelI still do […]

Letter to Ahmed

You were a pillar of my lifeFor more than twelve yearsI swam in your watersGuided by a prophetic light Your conviction was contagiousYour energy visceralYour power of persuasion electric and magnetic Now that you have passedI feel a painful absenceAching like an excised limbThis transformative project of ours unfinished I […]

REMIND ME TO FORGET

MemoriesHaunting meLeaving meNo air to breathe DestinyMysteryHaunting meTaunting me I come to writeI come to witnessHundreds of birdsFlocking to the sunThe day has begunMind and body are one I feel deep painReverberating insideI wish I could forgetI wish I could cry Pain for love lostPainful goodbyesBrutal rejectionTorturing my eyes You […]

FIERCE AND FEROCIOUS

You are wired with the fire of leatherMagnifying desire with the rhythms of pleasureVisceral synergy brings our worlds togetherProjecting electricity too potent to measure Manifesting as Hephaestus you forge volcanicCrafting sacred talismans—reimagining the orgasmicGrinding to leather anthems both raw and ecstaticTransforming my spirit with your tantalizing magic Our erotic flair […]

CYBERPUNK DIASPORA

dancers stomp, twist, and writhegiving voice to desires pent up deep insidewe long to rise as one and mobilizeour subaltern armies will rule the night our democracy is plagued and under siegewe need cyberpunk power to keep the peacenazis and fascists will come rolling deepbut we are samurai neurodivergents who reclaim […]

EXTRAVAGANT ATTRACTION

your eyes make me smile and your hips make me wildthis hard house pulsation leaves me hot, hung, and wirederotic reverberations stomp, grind, and flyyou are showing me your divine spark, your chakras, and your third eye i seek the guidance of my higher power and shed the illusion of […]

BARRICADE FREAKS

we are barricade freaks rocking prada in the streetwe style our rage in platinum shades shining strong and rolling deep the sacred healing we seek amplifies our quest for psychic peaceour erotic tectonics seduce the commanders of our dreadnought fleet as barricade freaks we charge ferociously into the streetswe dodge […]

VIOLATION

  desecration and violationtoxic psychic devastationcaustic pain is in gestationblocking love and trust and creation so much to learn if i dig in deepboundaries i have transgressed perpetrated on mei swarm with feeling dirty and emotionally uncleani pray for tears to flow and sanctify my scarred body we need transformational […]

GHOSTS: a riff on the emotional subterranean

echoes of emotion transgress my heart and mind i feel currents of suppressed attraction in confluence deep inside the erratic logic of passion convolutes and overflows i struggle with conflicting desires contorting my soul like a ghost your words still haunt me conjuring aspirations long buried deep visions of angels […]

A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

its been more than three years since i jumped off key bridge almost ending a life that at the time felt so tortured never consciously suicidal i was caught in a visceral panic attack following a dream that felt like a premonition of a torturous shift at the georgetown establishment […]

RITES OF FIRE: pyrotechnic meditation

we are slaves to technology—and to the class in control we transcribe a new pedagogy—reclaiming the creative human soul the ancient rites of fire deserve a postmodern rebirth fire destroys but it also gives birth i meditate to flames fueled by wax and harder drugs i will my mind to […]

BLAST FEMME

platinum-clad ladies vogue at the discotheque leaving all the boys pining–hard-wired horned and wet we rock the dance floor pounding hard with no regrets we throw elbows and claim our space turning tricks and turning heads femmed-out men in full length skirts queering power branding fame making it seductive and […]