Genocide in any age is horrifying…for painful months, my outrage has burned–but I had not found time to do more than share posts or talk about the issue in my communities… On Saturday, June 8th, I was proud to take to the streets… our mobilization attempted to surround the White […]
love and hate
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I feel disposableAn inconvenient truthLove not worthy of equityUnworthy of consideration I am on the trainCrying and mourningStrangers wonderNot knowing what to say Our relationship was powerfulDeeply meaningful to meNow I am heartbreakI am amplified painGrief unleashed like a flowing river You say that this isn’t fairBut you are choosing […]
Connecting with you is like fireGenerativePowerful and movingPulsating with Platonic attractionRemembering what it feels like for a boy We live as menDisconnected from our feelingsDisembodiedEnslaved by subterranean emotions We cover our fear with angerWe ignore deeply rooted shameHiding our insecurities behind performative facades Repressing our desire for transcendent loveRepressing our […]
I am ensconced in recoveryEmblazoned by surrenderRewired by these watersRivers of transformation flowing together I am the water kingAn aquatic tantric magicianI resurrect ancient prophecyI create my own religion My throne is luminousMy kingdom egalitarianNeurodivergence fuels our purposeWaters of recovery evoke equilibrium Tides of connection surge insideThe river of recovery […]
e My lips are a place of deep conditioningMy full Black lipsSo much less perfect than my white father’sSo much uglier than those of my white cousinsI love them nowBut once they were a psychic scar At age ten I learned to hold them pursedLike a precocious supermodelI still do […]
You were a pillar of my lifeFor more than twelve yearsI swam in your watersGuided by a prophetic light Your conviction was contagiousYour energy visceralYour power of persuasion electric and magnetic Now that you have passedI feel a painful absenceAching like an excised limbThis transformative project of ours unfinished I […]
MemoriesHaunting meLeaving meNo air to breathe DestinyMysteryHaunting meTaunting me I come to writeI come to witnessHundreds of birdsFlocking to the sunThe day has begunMind and body are one I feel deep painReverberating insideI wish I could forgetI wish I could cry Pain for love lostPainful goodbyesBrutal rejectionTorturing my eyes You […]
You are wired with the fire of leatherMagnifying desire with the rhythms of pleasureVisceral synergy brings our worlds togetherProjecting electricity too potent to measure Manifesting as Hephaestus you forge volcanicCrafting sacred talismans—reimagining the orgasmicGrinding to leather anthems both raw and ecstaticTransforming my spirit with your tantalizing magic Our erotic flair […]
Colors connive as spirits reviveWe are shackled by trauma locked deep insideWe heal from our pasts and rebuild our livesThe rhythms of recovery dance and collide This magical orange suggests hope and liberationLove and trust reopen gates of imaginationWe find joy in eye contact: intimacy’s foundationThis vanguard graffiti is an […]
This is my chosen place to write—it is close to my heart: my trust muscle I sit at the convergence of two rivers and marvel at the magic of the water’s constant motion—maybe this is a metaphor I seek energy from the intricate swirls of wood composing the wharf like […]
dancers stomp, twist, and writhegiving voice to desires pent up deep insidewe long to rise as one and mobilizeour subaltern armies will rule the night our democracy is plagued and under siegewe need cyberpunk power to keep the peacenazis and fascists will come rolling deepbut we are samurai neurodivergents who reclaim […]
your eyes make me smile and your hips make me wildthis hard house pulsation leaves me hot, hung, and wirederotic reverberations stomp, grind, and flyyou are showing me your divine spark, your chakras, and your third eye… i seek the guidance of my higher power and shed the illusion of […]
we are barricade freaks rocking prada in the streetwe style our rage in platinum shades shining strong and rolling deep the sacred healing we seek amplifies our quest for psychic peaceour erotic tectonics seduce the commanders of our dreadnought fleet as barricade freaks we charge ferociously into the streetswe dodge […]
In this moment, I am a hot mess of regret, anxiety, and desire With boundaries collapsed I don’t know how to recompartmentalize I don’t know what to think or believe about my inner self I struggle alone at night: mourning the passing of a dearly held aspiration But I don’t […]
if you see me leave earlyor hesitate to make eye contactif i seem reticent to express too much affectionthat’s just me trying not to fall in love again if i appear caught up in my headstuck between worlds and momentsafraid of my deepest self and its desiresthat’s just me trying […]
desecration and violationtoxic psychic devastationcaustic pain is in gestationblocking love and trust and creation so much to learn if i dig in deepboundaries i have transgressed perpetrated on mei swarm with feeling dirty and emotionally uncleani pray for tears to flow and sanctify my scarred body we need transformational […]
baby it hit so hard, I’m holding on to my chest maybe you left your mark, reminding me to forget it doesn’t matter where you are, you can keep my regret baby I got these scars, reminding me to forget you left your mark reminding me to forget the pain […]
echoes of emotion transgress my heart and mind i feel currents of suppressed attraction in confluence deep inside the erratic logic of passion convolutes and overflows i struggle with conflicting desires contorting my soul like a ghost your words still haunt me conjuring aspirations long buried deep visions of angels […]
its been more than three years since i jumped off key bridge almost ending a life that at the time felt so tortured never consciously suicidal i was caught in a visceral panic attack following a dream that felt like a premonition of a torturous shift at the georgetown establishment […]
thoroughly consumed by manic zen my imagination is flying free i pray that the lithium will do its work and keep the most perilous demons buried deep psychopharmacology is a science but its practice is mostly an art finding the right cocktail involves many detours and innumerable false starts the […]
we are slaves to technology—and to the class in control we transcribe a new pedagogy—reclaiming the creative human soul the ancient rites of fire deserve a postmodern rebirth fire destroys but it also gives birth i meditate to flames fueled by wax and harder drugs i will my mind to […]
platinum-clad ladies vogue at the discotheque leaving all the boys pining–hard-wired horned and wet we rock the dance floor pounding hard with no regrets we throw elbows and claim our space turning tricks and turning heads femmed-out men in full length skirts queering power branding fame making it seductive and […]
a child star—a cosmic gift left ensnared by celebrity’s kiss a prophetic scream a scream of hope and rage dancing in ecstasy on the stage brother michael gone far too soon our world misses his passion, his genius, his croon tortured by bigotry—scarred so deep his life inspires while his […]
ANGEL OR DEMON DEVIL OR SAINT YOU TAKE WHAT YOU WANT RAGE RULES YOUR BRAIN LIKE A MONSTER YOU KILL DISMEMBERING YOUR CROWN CONSUMING YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP DESECRATING SACRED GROUND NARCISSISTIC AND HATEFUL LOST INSIDE YOUR HEAD FOREVER A VICTIM SO RARELY A FRIEND EACH TIME HOPE RETURNS YOU REMIND […]
Monster boy ate my heart Ate my love tore it apart Left me dancing in the dark Bathed in tears like noah’s ark Ate my heart then ate my brain Took my love and gave me pain Sucked my blood and made it rain Cold case love gone insane Te […]
In the beginning was the word And the word was death Or maybe life or death to all life And ADAMA was born Toy soldier of divine clay Neither man nor woman just fine in its way ADAMA was cleaved in two by fire Lightning strike from Zeus on high […]