i am only forty-one, but addiction has been a cunning enemy of my life for at least three decadesat first compulsive sexual stimulation and fantasybut also a foundational addiction to the power of intellect and self will while my head branded me an atheist, my heart and soul kept me […]
BYPO PHOENIX
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i have tried to cry for days, just feeling that grief is the right feeling to feelemotive songs have helped me choke up for protracted moments, but again and again the feelings pass and my mind clearsi wonder why i am not more ground down by this–why i am not […]
in your eyes is placed a power greater than all of their hoarded goldyour eyes are wormholes to a future of humility and grace so deeply rooted that its seeds will growwe build power and resilience to feed the richness of our soulswe have so many toxic patterns and toxic […]
before we had a globalized system, we had globalized energy:fires of wood or wax to which we made sacred offerings of rare shells, silver, or gold before we had a world economy or planetary pandemics, we drew life and sustenance from the same sun and moon we saw our […]
luscious and radiantly non-binaryyou emanate potent spiritual forces from your divine apothecary you writhe and transform our world with your gender-expansive spiritelevating our anthem of revolution so that spirits above and below can hear it androgyne angels fly amongst us–unleashing the forces that, in a coming explosive instant, will ignite […]
\ limbs extend, attenuate, and bendthe scars of guilt and shame are healed yet again we celebrate life and the powers arising from deep withinwe are a sex positive armada and our epic style is heaven sent this is an alien ballet pregnant with cosmic insightour bodies contort in alignment […]
here i am–humbly and blissfully imperfectreckoning with harm i have caused by striving to be accountable and doing work to transform i am decentering selfdismantling the illusion of my willful power to control the world around me this is my attempt at surrenderand her matrix of liberation is opening new […]
the buddhist teacher tich nhat hanh taught me to see that we are like cloudsforever evolving and changing from one state to anotheralways becoming but never, ever, simply becoming nothing i am filled with exuberance in this moment, witnessing the deepening roots of recovery in my lifewitnessing the sacred inspiration […]
her voice soars, amplifying the resonance of visceral blood memoriesechoes of primordial pleasure emerging to coat our writhing bodies in glistening sweatechoes of days gone by when a woman pleasuring herself in a shower would have felt dirty and unclean she is a sun dragona divine spirit channeling the reverberations […]
my god is in the noticingnoticing the moment between when i start to breathe and when i feel the first rush of air into my lungsnoticing the energy and magic that surrounds usevident in birds that flock and fungi who thrive on the toxins leached by other forms of lifenoticing […]
its hard to be humble when the energy and adrenaline of an action are racing through my veinshard when my brain’s potent dopamine clinic is flying high on overdrive its hard to be humble when visions of fractals or sacred geometry meet my eyesleaving me feeling particularly empowered to participate […]
collective grief and collective ragefreedom crushed, jailed and chainedwe rise in power saying all of their nameswe resist this toxic fascist plague we find joy in struggle and joy through our tearsacross our nation we rise to conquer fearpower quakes when our fires are revealedif they don’t concede we […]
I am always looking for magicseeking the dilation of time, the deepest enunciation of truth, the most exquisite attenuation of the dancer’s fierce extension I am grateful for all of these momentsgrateful for the magic of the moon and the sunI am grateful for the serenity of silence and […]
I want to write about who I am becoming—and about what I am leaving behindI want to write about the web we are weaving to save the air we are breathing with the power of our minds I am a shadow worker in gestation—seeing the cracks through which liberation comespouring […]
so its official—we are now the epicenter of this global pandemicand we aren’t yet managing to even test everyone with symptomsthis is all likely to get exponentially worse before it gets any betterleaders of color have plowed the ground building networks for mutual aid and resistanceprefiguring the faintly visible outlines […]
this is not a drillcircumnavigates our globe in tandem with the relative scale of contemporary social dysfunction this is a moment for what is to be donea moment for protection from this infection: for connection and introspection this is a moment that calls for all of us to breatheand look […]
I feel alone–so painfully alone… Lost in a fog of fear, profound remorse, and omnipresent anxiety… My mind has been locked in a vicious cycle of FIGHT, FLIGHT, or FREEZE–a cycle only broken by cathartic tears of pain… I have been confronted in retrograde by a new landscape of harm–this […]
living in luminous sobriety is its own sacred highwe must craft a healing revolution to sanctify our hearts and minds the oxygen, dopamine, and adrenaline make me wild and super flyi am done being a spice junkie constantly lost in the ebb and flow of time i saw visceral visions […]
In this moment, I am a hot mess of regret, anxiety, and desire With boundaries collapsed I don’t know how to recompartmentalize I don’t know what to think or believe about my inner self I struggle alone at night: mourning the passing of a dearly held aspiration But I don’t […]
they are the distance at which i can safely love you and myself at the same time they are the porous barriers that i transgress when carnal power arises transcendent they are the force fields we generate to allow us to move like water and find the sacred speed […]
if you see me leave earlyor hesitate to make eye contactif i seem reticent to express too much affectionthat’s just me trying not to fall in love again if i appear caught up in my headstuck between worlds and momentsafraid of my deepest self and its desiresthat’s just me trying […]
your strength is flexed and built out rawyour spirit is animated by zygotes of sacred cosmic lawsyou summon my passion from near and farwe consummate our connection blessed by karmic stars this is rockstar sex: it is riot pornwe dance all night and fuck til dawnwe craft reverberating fractals and […]
Our vibe is subtle, electric, and wildYour warmth is deeply attractive and your charms make me smile You are an ancient people’s warrior king and a cybernetic genius’ childWe are bonded by the related demons that teem within our minds We have shared common struggles and bared vulnerable soulsWe seek […]
you activate my visions and animate my mindbut your hallucinogenic powers leave toxicity behind i reach for you out of habit hoping to play with timei reach for you seeking a key to the magic arising from deep inside this is dirty medicine flowing freely conjured to fuel my firei […]
our eyes lock in the dark and i try to draw you inwe touch heart to heart, soul to soul, and skin to skinthis is an erotic duet whose seismic rhythms we beginthis is succulent and euphoric, but some among us would call it a sin we are the red […]
we write in code, with data entombed, in tunnels of platinum and tunnels of goldmy river remolds the depths of your soul, conjuring a sacred passion that grows hot and bold this cypher we craft conjures cylon futures, where the contours of AI will meld with our naturethis arabic script […]