solitude and loneliness make me miss raw happiness angels and demons blood spit and semen pirates and conquistadors show me what pain is for digging in but holding on trying hard but being wrong its a song not a sin lots of gin with oxygen dialectic catalytic preorgasmic analytic cold […]
toxic emotions
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In the beginning was the word And the word was death Or maybe life or death to all life And ADAMA was born Toy soldier of divine clay Neither man nor woman just fine in its way ADAMA was cleaved in two by fire Lightning strike from Zeus on high […]
i feel grey creeping in again melancholy next of kin solitude breeding sin isolation sinking in i long for something visceral to rouse my pulse and shake my skull to give me something new to say respite to pain so dull and grey the world feels bleak and devestating my […]
You are in deep I can’t shake you You have power You probably don’t even want I rise and fall To the erratic rhythm Of your exhalation An absent glance Sends shivers of pain Racing through my veins Nerves taut I try to breathe And let go But the roots […]
Its as easy To abuse a person As to abuse a substance To become addicted To a particular prism Through which to view oneself I breathe deeply And try to let go Of the compulsion I feel To connect incessantly And learn to carve independent space For my own thoughts […]
Not knowing how you are But fearing the worst I am paralyzed by ghosts of past tragedies Anger, guilt, and shame are toxic emotions Constricting breath and repelling human contact I pray to any spirit that will listen For your safety As I write I feel the threat of tears […]
To write again is a struggle A struggle to give voice to months Entombed in passivity Lacerated by loneliness Bored to tears by the endless drumming rhythm Of isolation Awakened again I hear angels inside Quickening the blood Recharging adrenaline Reemerging to find friends eager to embrace A revived personality […]
Psychic pain consumes my brain Haunting caustic always the same Rhythms change but grey remains The color cloaking blood and veins Walking wounded I’m ashamed Of all the things I’ve done in vain Of all the promise laid to waste Of foolish dreams I wish erased Flying high I fell […]
accepting rejection dissecting connection i seek absolution but crave affection alone in a jail cell trapped in a living hell pain my new master learning rules faster limiting creativity haunted by divinity battered by humility ready to live simply humiliated by reality shocked by my capacity still seeking evolution but […]
Its as easy To abuse a person As to abuse a substance To become addicted To a particular prism Through which to view oneself I breathe deeply And try to let go Of the compulsion I feel To connect incessantly And learn to carve independent space For my own thoughts […]
LOVE and RAGE GUILT and SHAME make me CRY SCREAM my NAME trust is a WEAPON when LOVE is a GAME RAGE is a MONSTER too TOXIC to TAME BYPO c2010 Evolve–Or Die Trying [email protected]