Category: suicide

A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

its been more than three years since i jumped off key bridge—almost ending a life that at the time felt so tortured…never consciously suicidal i was caught in a visceral panic attack following a dream that felt like a premonition of a torturous shift at the georgetown establishment known as kafe leopold…so i guess that …

+ Read More

KEY BRIDGE

KEY BRIDGE

4:00 AM JOLTED FROM SLEEP…I AWOKE HAUNTED BY A NIGHTMARE …UNABLE TO GO BACK TO BED I LAY STARTLED BY CREEPING PSYCHOSIS …I MADE THE JOURNEY TO GEORGETOWN–FINDING KAFE LEOPOLD BUSTLING AS ALWAYS I TRIED TO PLAY MY ROLE AS A SERVER–BEGGING THE GODS OF HOSPITALITY FOR REPRIEVE…THE BRAIN IS COMPLICATED I KNOW BUT WHAT …

+ Read More

PYRHIC KARMA DEIFIED

PYRHIC KARMA DEIFIED

GASOLINE-FUELED FLAMES FLICKER LIKE FRAGMENTS DEIFIED…CROSS BURNING EMBERS PETRIFIED OF TRUMP’S KINGDOM COME…A BLAZE OF GLORY IMPLODES IN THE ALLEY…GASOLINE FIRE NO FUCKING JOKE…SMOTHERED WITH MULCH AND ANTIFREEZE…STILL SIRENS SCREAM IN TO QUELL THE CONFLAGRATION…STRIKE ONE CAME WHEN I HEARD A VOICE IN MY HEAD TELLING ME IT WAS TIME TO GO OUT TO SMOKE…STRIKE …

+ Read More

Georgetown Psych Ward

Georgetown Psych Ward

Overcome with gratitude I write and ponder the many blessings of madness…Stuck on this ward marooned with pirates, explorers, and uncut genius I am rooted in the moments and little things that heal…All praise the healing hands of anti-psychosis…Armies of karma arise in cosmic unity…Brewing vats of wildfire from starbursts millions of years and eons …

+ Read More

PSYCHOTROPIC WARFARE: a mixtape for the mental health revolution

PSYCHOTROPIC WARFARE: a mixtape for the mental health revolution

MOODS ARE TORTURED CRAZY BEASTS WILD UNTAMED – SO FIERCELY FREE CHURNING WORLDS ACHIEVING FEATS BUT ENSLAVED BY TIDES OF NEUROCHEMISTRY MANIC FLIGHTS – DEPRESSIVE PAIN ANXIETY HOLDS EXPRESSION IN CHAINS NARCISSISTIC OBSESSION – EMOTIONAL BORDERLINE PERSONALITY STIGMAS INSCRIBED IN TEXTS AND ON MINDS VOICES OF TRAUMA ECHO DEEP INSIDE VISIONS AND FEELINGS INTRUDE FROM …

+ Read More

ARCHITECTS OF SUICIDE

ARCHITECTS OF SUICIDE

TOXIC PAIN CONSUMES THE BRAIN LOVE AND HOPE RAPED AND CHAINED ANGELS FAIL GOD IS DEAD SPIRITS WRITHE IN MORTAL DREAD GUILT AND SHAME RAGE AND PAIN TOXIC BREW CRIPPLED BRAIN ANCIENT RITE MODERN SCOURGE PRIMAL FLIGHT TO SATAN’S DOOR NIGHT FALLS FAST DEMONS TAKE HOLD WRISTS ARE SLASHED DEPRESSION GROWS BOLD SUICIDE TAKES MANY …

+ Read More

TO PATRICK

TO PATRICK

We were adolescent friends Armed with pubescent bravado Always joking—always smiling The girls always liked you So I thought you must have been happy Years later on the platform I saw you Beautiful body teeming in prep school apparel You held my gaze a little too long But I thought nothing of it at the …

+ Read More