sobriety

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GOTHIC ANGEL

Eyes wide open Eyes wide shut You look deep within Extending your trust   Opening my mind to new culture To the zeitgeist of the moment Grounding me in the present Rooted in the path we have chosen   I call you gothic angel You are a protege of prophecy […]

LIBATIONS FOR AN ADDICT

This is raw emotion Barely processed reflexive emotion Feelings swimming amidst violent cliffs Lurching in divergent directions Seeking cathartic expression Seeking connection   We loved you We loved you fiercely If only you could have felt the joy of you The humility and vulnerability The visceral presence of connection   […]

WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimage I came to the sea seeking recovery To this convening of addicts Trying to change our patterns Trying to recover   It is only April The ocean is still cold But I walked into her arms three times yesterday   I waded in with the dawn […]

PROPHET OF YEARNING

You were a sacrifice An offering from the sacred A voice for a generation Prophet of liberation Prophet of yearning   I ride by this river Feeling subterranean vibrations This water helps my spirit cry River tears of absolution and restitution   Black shadow resonates On the surface of sacred […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through water Coursing like seismic electricity Invoking cosmic destiny Molding a conjecture with prophecy This visceral manifestation of what I feel for you   You are my sponsees My karmic proteges Conjuring inner magic Reverberating like kinetic static Through these waters of synergy   I believe […]

ADDICT POTENTIAL

I come through sand Reverberating with karmic potential   I come for the sun Rising from beyond the ocean   We are survivors of addiction A ruthless affliction Gathered to share our stories Staying clean one day at a time   Our disease is insidious Brutal and persistent   We […]

TRAUMA SURVIVORS ANONYMOUS: a bypo journal

I sit by the water—I came here to write….The river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energy…It reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mind—to write about the social construct known as bipolar disorder…This diagnosis has been an […]

SACRED EYE

I am evolving and deepening my awareness… With the shackles of addiction in remission I live in gratitude and in joy… I live on the manic depressive spectrum—tending towards states of hypomania and mania… Eliminating the toxicity of substances of abuse has helped me stabilize, but the powers within that […]

SONG OF SURRENDER

here i am–humbly and blissfully imperfect–reckoning with harm i have caused by striving to be accountable and doing work to transform…i am decentering self–dismantling the illusion of my willful power to control the world around me…this is my attempt at surrender–and her matrix of liberation is opening new vistas of […]

MEDITATION ON HUMILITY

its hard to be humble when the energy and adrenaline of an action are racing through my veins–hard when my brain’s potent dopamine clinic is flying high on overdrive…its hard to be humble when visions of fractals or sacred geometry meet my eyes–leaving me feeling particularly empowered to participate in […]

GRATITUDE

  I am always looking for magic–seeking the dilation of time, the deepest enunciation of truth, the most exquisite attenuation of the dancer’s fierce extension…I am grateful for all of these moments–grateful for the magic of the moon and the sun…I am grateful for the serenity of silence and I […]