it is late and i am wired…the sky seems to boil with light and energy…clouds morphing from shape to shape—seemingly instantaneously…this condition of mine can be so elemental—tidal waves of potent shifting moods commandeering my mind…sun-moon-stars-storms—all demanding introspection and proffering insight…i know i need stability-but so desperately crave the manic […]
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chemical reaction–a sweet satisfaction…orgasmic interaction–its physical attraction…we seek all our lives–for ones to love and to fuck…we harbor deep inside–the urge to rim and suck…expanding our conceptions of sex and of gender–has left the right apoplectic, fired up, and untethered…to my trans sisters and brothers i dedicate my life–i commit […]
rebels arise from every corner of our country–demanding justice for immigrants–decrying hate and bigotry…amidst this kaleidoscope of resistance we must create space to strategize–find time to dig deeper–find new ways to organize…too many on the left view dc as a stage–a place for parades that ignore the disenfranchised residents of […]
i inhale with intensity–the nicotine suffuses my lungs…i adore your psychic immensity–your love is an intoxicating drug…sex is sacred and love is fly–i knew i wanted you when you first caught my eye…ladies butched up or fierce men in drag–we rule the night and we aren’t giving it back…trans and […]
praying for love and praying for peace—praising the sun and craving relief…we have miscreants in power—sowing seeds of social death…we must resist in this crucial hour—fighting with every sinew and every breath…its time to exorcise the demons of white supremacy…time to heal the historic wounds of genocide and slavery…the patriarchal […]
alcohol and adderall—lines of coke fueling pychotic breaks…sex with meth and sex on speed—giving less than i fight to take…my bloodstream is soaked in chemicals—prescribed and otherwise…the neurons in my brain love to play–psychic synapses open fire…the allure of self-medication is potent and profound—its so easy to lose sight of […]
the light of distant stars refracts through our atmosphere crafting a tapestry ripe for exploration by our evolving imagination…clouds morph and transform–becoming new things and then disintegrating as quickly as they first cohered…we remember our stories and our pasts but so often lose the moments…if i could only film all […]
tonight i saw the light of three stars converge to form a celestial phoenix my cortex felt a surge of energy fueled by dopamine connecting with heavenly angels i watched the plants in my family’s garden move to the erratic rhythms channeled by pandora through my iPhone i felt the […]
what is the meaning of independence day to the more than two-million incarcerated…a day to dance with brutal irony–a day to feel the burn of being isolated…some wounds never fully heal–leaving searing pain waiting in the wings…some scars send their roots deep–welding mind and body into a tortured being…in every […]
we are vagrants and migrants united by defiance we swear by mutant creeds evolving newborn science la lutte ouvriere–class war in gallic style flows through intersectional rivers elevating the marginalized… un ejercito grows transcendant a global army rising proud la justicia es nuestra alma black power here and now infidel […]
one hundred days of insanity bombast and bigotry…more than one hundred days of resistance–reaching deeper and summoning the best of the human spirit…the quasi-comic spectacle of proto-fascist corporate incompetence would be amusing if the stakes weren’t so deathly high…war games in the middle east–saber rattling of atomic dimensions in east […]
natural selection–queer resurrection immaculate conception is an age-old deception amplify our voices–magnify the choices if karma is a bitch then feed the bitch some morsels sexed-up homo thugs–veins infused by cosmic drugs hit the streets in search of love–copulate with gods above the shitstorm clusterfuck of the cheetoh-fuhrer–warbucks breeds an […]
it is excruciatingly late and i am wired…thoughts flowing fast like the currents of the nile pondering the mysteries of consciousness–examining the porous boundary between genius and psychosis this is not entirely new territory ever since my first mania i have wondered what to make of all these intense and […]
hybrid spirits realign–crafting plans and reading minds…rebels fight and percolate–arming shields with platinum plates… gaga strikes while banksy flies–systems change when graf-heads write…cylon powers reemerge–disparate traditions reconverge… prophecy and chemistry–artistry and alchemy…ministry that never sleeps builds an altar rooted deep… our universe is vast but bounded…our resistance evolves–fierce and grounded…oppressive […]
my eyes were first met by visions when i was 25…psychic angels connecting smoke and light–earth, body, and sky…floridly manic i flew through central park imagining myself as a primal hunter gatherer…i felt time slow then accelerate–i felt my power…i imagined a destiny beyond time–beyond the parameters of our earthly […]
amidst the specter of apocalypse–resistance is seething…people are moving–the planet is breathing… prophets of old meet prophets of rage…flames of rebellion challenge forces of hate… abrahamic creeds meet koranic texts–addicting us to speed–hypnotized by breath… the stakes are ferociously high–our place on earth is at stake…we must live to fight […]
love is pain–branded black– across your soul–across your back… eyes so blue–so dangerous– suggesting love–inducing lust… damaged beauty–like icarus… your brain a slave–to angel dust… janus faced–you led me on… i did my best–you did me wrong –BYPO PHOENIX c)2016
FROM UNIVERSE TO MULTIVERSE–COSMIC KARMA INTERSPERSED…SPECIES GROW EVOLVE AND THRIVE–EMPIRES FALL WHEN PEOPLE RISE …SLAVES OF INSTINCT GO EXTINCT–COPTIC QUEERS BRAND ARMS WITH INK…CLIMATE CRISIS COMING FAST–BARBARIC SYSTEMS HOLD KARMA BACK…ANCIENT SEERS MEET MODERN PROPHETS–BYPO FREAKS AND SCHIZO DAUGHTERS…MAN AND WOMAN–QUEERS AND STRAIGHTS–RISE AS ONE WHEN LOVE TRUMPS HATE… DARWIN […]
ONCE LOVERS–THEN BROTHERS NOW OTHER–HOPE SMOTHERED WORDS CUT–LIKE A KNIFE LIGHTNING QUICK–SEIZURE LIKE PSYCH WARDS COMPLICATE PILLS YEARN–MEDICATE BAD BLOOD–TOXIC LOVE PRAYING TO GODS ABOVE –BYPO PHOENIX c) 2016
4:00 AM JOLTED FROM SLEEP…I AWOKE HAUNTED BY A NIGHTMARE …UNABLE TO GO BACK TO BED I LAY STARTLED BY CREEPING PSYCHOSIS …I MADE THE JOURNEY TO GEORGETOWN–FINDING KAFE LEOPOLD BUSTLING AS ALWAYS I TRIED TO PLAY MY ROLE AS A SERVER–BEGGING THE GODS OF HOSPITALITY FOR REPRIEVE…THE BRAIN IS […]
gasoline-fueled flames flicker like fragments deified cross burning embers petrified of trump’s kingdom come a blaze of glory implodes in the alley gasoline fire no fucking joke smothered with mulch and antifreeze still sirens scream in to quell the conflagration strike one came when i heard a voice in my […]
Overcome with gratitude I write and ponder the many blessings of madness…Stuck on this ward marooned with pirates, explorers, and uncut genius I am rooted in the moments and little things that heal…All praise the healing hands of anti-psychosis…Armies of karma arise in cosmic unity…Brewing vats of wildfire from starbursts […]
CEREBRAL DRUG OF CHOICE–IT FLOODS, ENGULFS, AND REMOLDS…TAMING ALL CALMING INFLUENCES…DOPAMINE FLASHING WITH COSMIC FATALITY SENDS SIGNALS THROUGHOUT THE BRAIN AND BODY THAT MORE IS NEVER ENOUGH…. NEVER ENOUGH…LIKE HERCULES WRESTLING WITH SEVEN HYDRAS–DOPAMINE OVERPOWERS AND IN TRIUMPH SENDS NUCLEAR TREMORS ALONG FRAGILE COASTLINES…DOPAMINE MY FRIEND, MY FOE, MY NEEDLE, […]
PASSIONS INFLAMED-I WRITHE IN BED UNABLE TO SLEEP… NICOTINE CRAVINGS BOTH URGENT AND FLEETING– YOKE THE OXEN OF HYPOMANIA TO BIG TOBACCO’S BIGGEST SCAM… ASH BECKONS-EMBERS GLOW-FLAME EXPLODES AND FLIES LIKE LIGHTNING… I CRAVE THE RELEASE THAT FIRE SEDUCES BUT KNOW MY BOUNDARIES ARE POROUS OR WORSE… TOUCHED BY FIRE […]
MOODS ARE TORTURED CRAZY BEASTS WILD UNTAMED – SO FIERCELY FREE CHURNING WORLDS ACHIEVING FEATS BUT ENSLAVED BY TIDES OF NEUROCHEMISTRY MANIC FLIGHTS – DEPRESSIVE PAIN ANXIETY HOLDS EXPRESSION IN CHAINS NARCISSISTIC OBSESSION – EMOTIONAL BORDERLINE PERSONALITY STIGMAS INSCRIBED IN TEXTS AND ON MINDS VOICES OF TRAUMA ECHO DEEP INSIDE […]
TOXIC PAIN CONSUMES THE BRAIN LOVE AND HOPE WHIPPED AND CHAINED ANGELS FAIL GOD IS DEAD SPIRITS WRITHE IN MORTAL DREAD GUILT AND SHAME RAGE AND PAIN TOXIC BREW CRIPPLED BRAIN ANCIENT RITE MODERN SCOURGE PRIMAL FLIGHT TO SATAN’S DOOR NIGHT FALLS FAST DEMONS TAKE HOLD WRISTS ARE SLASHED DEPRESSION […]