Recovery

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WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimageI came to the sea seeking recoveryTo this convening of addictsTrying to change our patternsTrying to recover It is only AprilThe ocean is still coldBut I walked into her arms three times yesterday I waded in with the dawnWatching the sun rise through the lens of a […]

PROPHET OF YEARNING

You were a sacrificeAn offering from the sacredA voice for a generationProphet of liberationProphet of yearning I ride by this riverFeeling subterranean vibrationsThis water helps my spirit cryRiver tears of absolution and restitution Black shadow resonatesOn the surface of sacred waterGlistening like onyxA dark mirror for your storyReflecting the toxicity […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through waterCoursing like seismic electricityInvoking cosmic destinyMolding a conjecture with prophecyThis visceral manifestation of what I feel for you You are my sponseesMy karmic protegesConjuring inner magicReverberating like kinetic staticThrough these waters of synergy I believe in our programThis journey of recoveryA migration towards spiritual discoveryFluid […]

REMIND ME TO FORGET

MemoriesHaunting meLeaving meNo air to breathe DestinyMysteryHaunting meTaunting me I come to writeI come to witnessHundreds of birdsFlocking to the sunThe day has begunMind and body are one I feel deep painReverberating insideI wish I could forgetI wish I could cry Pain for love lostPainful goodbyesBrutal rejectionTorturing my eyes You […]

HYDRAULIC SEX

You are thunder amidst the rainYou swim in the river that keeps me saneErotic power flows through your veinsWe recover from apocalypseWith whatever remains Your image evokes the carnalLicentious gym sexYou pulsate with intensityYou flirt and seduce–grind and flex Deep within transformations emergeOrganic and orgasmic fluids convergeTime stands still awaiting […]

ADDICT POTENTIAL

I come through sandReverberating with karmic potential I come for the sunRising from beyond the ocean We are survivors of addictionA ruthless afflictionGathered to share our storiesStaying clean one day at a time Our disease is insidiousBrutal and persistent We are forever imperiledVulnerable to seductive allureThe urge to suppress challenging […]

CLEAN DATE: a bypo journal

February 26thIs just a dateA marker in timeAn outpost amidst psychic wildlings For me it is my clean dateToday—my two year anniversaryTwo years without drugs, including alcoholTwo years of recoveryTwo years of spiritual growt The valence of my mental oscillations is manageableI am more stable and connected than I have […]

TRAUMA SURVIVORS ANONYMOUS: a bypo journal

I sit by the water—I came here to writeThe river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energyIt reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mindto write about the social construct known as bipolar disorderThis diagnosis has been an […]

ORACLE OF THE SNAKE

  Snake medicine pulsates through my being, unleashing immense powers of creativitybringing psychic energy into awareness and channeling this magic towards our need for healing The kundalini power arising from the root chakra ascends through our snake-like spinal columnI envision a serpentine double-helix armoring our spines and our minds through […]

STACATTO IMAGINATION

my mind reverberates at hypomanic speed to the rhythms of the flickering flames–seven multicolored pillars of fire surround my sacred circle of evolving recovery arising untamed… this monument to the pyromanic is made of the vestiges of dozens of votives…i summon powers of magical incantation from a pantheon of sacred […]

PSYCHEDELIC JESUS

light and sound become energized and fused into onewe see fractals in the moon and volcanic power in the sunpsychedelic synergy has transformed who we are and what we can becomewe project universal liberation as the cosmic project that is to be done i have learned that i do not […]

KARMIC TRANSITION

i have tried to cry for days, just feeling that grief is the right feeling to feelemotive songs have helped me choke up for protracted moments, but again and again the feelings pass and my mind clearsi wonder why i am not more ground down by this–why i am not […]