Category: toxic emotions

HEXAGONS OF BABYLON

HEXAGONS OF BABYLON

hexagons and lexicons—digging deep and dropping bombs…striving for freedom singing songs—crafting a future that is just beyond…orchestrate and stimulate—never try to prevaricate…build a bridge from satan’s gate—copulate and demonstrate…species rise and evolve or die—empires fall when slaves arise…corporate power quakes inside—when we build power and organize…branded backs and sculpted arms–signifiers of a creative dawn…decagons and …

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GHOSTS: a riff on the emotional subterranean

GHOSTS: a riff on the emotional subterranean

echoes of emotion transgress my heart and mind—i feel currents of suppressed attraction in confluence deep inside….the erratic logic of passion convolutes and overflows—i struggle with conflicting desires contorting my soul…like a ghost your words still haunt me—conjuring aspirations long buried deep…visions of angels consume my whole body—hoping my confusion is something only i can …

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A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

A SURVIVOR’S MANIFESTO

its been more than three years since i jumped off key bridge—almost ending a life that at the time felt so tortured…never consciously suicidal i was caught in a visceral panic attack following a dream that felt like a premonition of a torturous shift at the georgetown establishment known as kafe leopold…so i guess that …

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KARMIC INSURGENCY

KARMIC INSURGENCY

  whose streets—our streets—so said the cops while suppressing speech…black lives on trial—neo-nazis on the rise—such a toxic miasma of moribund white pride…a US base on holy land—a criminal alliance—suppressing palestinian dreams—a magnet for arab defiance…our world grows smaller—and increasingly imperiled—climate change is threatening—our social system is sterile…its time to give voice to new battalions …

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RITES OF FIRE: pyrotechnic meditation

RITES OF FIRE: pyrotechnic meditation

we are slaves to technology—and to the class in control…we transcribe a new pedagogy—reclaiming the creative human soul…the ancient rites of fire deserve a postmodern rebirth…fire destroys but it also gives birth…i meditate to flames fueled by wax and harder drugs—i will my mind to find peace—to look inward and live with love…the flames are …

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RADICAL EXORCISM

RADICAL EXORCISM

praying for love and praying for peace—praising the sun and craving relief…we have miscreants in power—sowing seeds of social death…we must resist in this crucial hour—fighting with every sinew and every breath…its time to exorcise the demons of white supremacy…time to heal the historic wounds of genocide and slavery…the patriarchal order has given birth to …

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KING OF RAGE

KING OF RAGE

ANGEL OR DEMON DEVIL OR SAINT YOU TAKE WHAT YOU WANT RAGE RULES YOUR BRAIN LIKE A MONSTER YOU KILL DISMEMBERING YOUR CROWN CONSUMING YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP DESECRATING SACRED GROUND NARCISSISTIC AND HATEFUL LOST INSIDE YOUR HEAD FOREVER A VICTIM SO RARELY A FRIEND EACH TIME HOPE RETURNS YOU REMIND ME TO LEAVE RELATIONS THIS …

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IMMORTALIZED: a tribute to Gil Scott-Heron

IMMORTALIZED: a tribute to Gil Scott-Heron

love and rage took the stage speaking truth eschewing fame inscribing pain abusing veins rebel poet living wraith harlem streets never clean seductive highs pure dopamine kick it quit it never sticking rhyme and rhythm ever kicking shining star badly scarred edge of glory gone too far science dropping never stopping black jesus baby poet …

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A MONSTA RIFF

A MONSTA RIFF

Monster boy ate my heart Ate my love tore it apart Left me dancing in the dark Bathed in tears like noah’s ark Ate my heart then ate my brain Took my love and gave me pain Sucked my blood and made it rain Cold case love gone insane Te amo baby- is what I …

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THE SORDID ARCHITECTURE OF URBAN HIEROGLYPHICS

THE SORDID ARCHITECTURE OF URBAN HIEROGLYPHICS

solitude and loneliness make me miss raw happiness angels and demons blood spit and semen pirates and conquistadors show me what pain is for digging in but holding on trying hard but being wrong its a song not a sin lots of gin with oxygen dialectic catalytic preorgasmic analytic cold case love seductive drug erotic …

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AGENTS OF KARMA

AGENTS OF KARMA

In the beginning was the word And the word was death Or maybe life or death to all life And ADAMA was born Toy soldier of divine clay Neither man nor woman just fine in its way ADAMA was cleaved in two by fire Lightning strike from Zeus on high WO-MAN formed – CYLON hybrid …

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Contending with Grey

Contending with Grey

i feel grey creeping in again melancholy next of kin solitude breeding sin isolation sinking in i long for something visceral to rouse my pulse and shake my skull to give me something new to say respite to pain so dull and grey the world feels bleak and devestating my means are meek-eviscerating my hands …

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DEEP

DEEP

You are in deep I can’t shake you You have power You probably don’t even want I rise and fall To the erratic rhythm Of your exhalation An absent glance Sends shivers of pain Racing through my veins Nerves taut I try to breathe And let go But the roots are deep And strong And …

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