bipolar solidarity

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DARK MAGIC

  Fire writhes upwardManifesting dark magicEmanating from the root chakraLiberating my energyAnimating prophetic imagination Tantric forces amplifyAwakening archetypes of masculinityAwakening my inner kingMy fearless rising warriorMy shamanic magicianMy most exquisite tantalizing lover These archetypes interbreedUnder the glow of dark magicEvolving life force in gestationChanneling the contrast of light and shadowChanneling […]

DREAMER BOY

, When I see youI see nascent joyChained by webs of self-deception When I hear your voiceSometimes I hear honesty and vulnerabilitySometimes evasion and rationalization I feel your potentialI feel your inner struggleI feel you torn in many directionsOscillating between spiritual growth and addiction We write by our riversThey reconnect […]

WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimageI came to the sea seeking recoveryTo this convening of addictsTrying to change our patternsTrying to recover It is only AprilThe ocean is still coldBut I walked into her arms three times yesterday I waded in with the dawnWatching the sun rise through the lens of a […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through waterCoursing like seismic electricityInvoking cosmic destinyMolding a conjecture with prophecyThis visceral manifestation of what I feel for you You are my sponseesMy karmic protegesConjuring inner magicReverberating like kinetic staticThrough these waters of synergy I believe in our programThis journey of recoveryA migration towards spiritual discoveryFluid […]

Letter to Ahmed

You were a pillar of my lifeFor more than twelve yearsI swam in your watersGuided by a prophetic light Your conviction was contagiousYour energy visceralYour power of persuasion electric and magnetic Now that you have passedI feel a painful absenceAching like an excised limbThis transformative project of ours unfinished I […]

COSMIC RADIATION

  You ripple with orogenySubterranean power flowingEnergy emanating from the ocean floor Pulsating through your veinsDescending like sacred airYour presence is magneticChannelling collective hope and pain This leather animates your sensualityProjecting emancipated corporealityYour cosmic chemistry transcends bordersPsychic electricity conjures prophecy We build a defiant global rebellionPolyvalent in its manifestationsThis is […]

HYDRAULIC SEX

You are thunder amidst the rainYou swim in the river that keeps me saneErotic power flows through your veinsWe recover from apocalypseWith whatever remains Your image evokes the carnalLicentious gym sexYou pulsate with intensityYou flirt and seduce–grind and flex Deep within transformations emergeOrganic and orgasmic fluids convergeTime stands still awaiting […]

WILDFIRE

I feel powerSeismic powerEpic tantric forcesMorphing and transformingMolding sacred hours I danced tonightSpirit movedFinding groovesAnimating vulnerabilityAmplifying sensuality My journey is cosmicI channel potent spiritual energy Transmuting manic chaosCreating introspectionLiberated from psychic wildfire I feel prophecy emergingI feel the vibrating starsThe fractalized roots and fungi There is wildfire in my mindAnd […]

NEURODIVERGENT

  What if my evolving diagnosisIs so much more than pathology?What if it’s not illness?What if its capacity? I feel these burning questionsReverberating karmicallyI feel the power of empathyFractals of neurodivergent chemistry These fractals of psychotropic waterSynaptic fluid pregnant with powerChurning in waves of emotionBurning with the aquatic fire of […]

CLEAN DATE: a bypo journal

February 26thIs just a dateA marker in timeAn outpost amidst psychic wildlings For me it is my clean dateToday—my two year anniversaryTwo years without drugs, including alcoholTwo years of recoveryTwo years of spiritual growt The valence of my mental oscillations is manageableI am more stable and connected than I have […]

VISIONS

My visionsMy visions again A vista of river reverberating with lightRipples and undulations become a Cylon matrix I see my pantheon of erotic disciplesMy inspirations, my collaborators, my co-conspirators It is you—cyberpunk boricuaReturning persuasivelyInsistentlyHelping me imagine our path I realize nowWhat I was chasing and cravingYears of addiction and manic […]

TRAUMA SURVIVORS ANONYMOUS: a bypo journal

I sit by the water—I came here to writeThe river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energyIt reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mindto write about the social construct known as bipolar disorderThis diagnosis has been an […]

SACRED EYE

I am evolving and deepening my awareness… With the shackles of addiction in remission I live in gratitude and in joy… I live on the manic depressive spectrum—tending towards states of hypomania and mania… Eliminating the toxicity of substances of abuse has helped me stabilize, but the powers within that […]

TRUTH SERUM: a journal entry

Last night, the moon communed with Jupiter—someone told me to ask for what I want because I just might get it…with synapses firing at speeds faster than light, I asked for insight and foresight—I asked for knowledge of my noble purpose… today, I had a soul to soul convergence with […]

TANTRIC UNDERGROUND

our vixens and our hustlers conjure epic supernatural sentiencewe deduce spiritual principles from the fulcrum of our collective experienceerotic anthems seduce the mind arming us with tantric prescienceerotic armadas patrol the scintillating seas of magical dialectical consciousness we conspire and inspire to build a global tantric subterraneanwe feel our spirits […]

BARRICADE FREAKS

we are barricade freaks rocking prada in the streetwe style our rage in platinum shades shining strong and rolling deep the sacred healing we seek amplifies our quest for psychic peaceour erotic tectonics seduce the commanders of our dreadnought fleet as barricade freaks we charge ferociously into the streetswe dodge […]

STACATTO IMAGINATION

my mind reverberates at hypomanic speed to the rhythms of the flickering flames–seven multicolored pillars of fire surround my sacred circle of evolving recovery arising untamed… this monument to the pyromanic is made of the vestiges of dozens of votives…i summon powers of magical incantation from a pantheon of sacred […]

URGENCY

manic zen from deep within fusing sin with oxygenpossibilities writhe and morph revealing potent visions usually accessed psychedelically i have seen vivid fractals unfolding before my closed eyesi have felt tantric erotic power erupting deep inside in this wretched moment civilization is at stakebut i am removed from the world […]