I want to write about who I am becoming—and about what I am leaving behindI want to write about the web we are weaving to save the air we are breathing with the power of our minds I am a shadow worker in gestation—seeing the cracks through which liberation comespouring […]
mental health
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I feel alone–so painfully alone… Lost in a fog of fear, profound remorse, and omnipresent anxiety… My mind has been locked in a vicious cycle of FIGHT, FLIGHT, or FREEZE–a cycle only broken by cathartic tears of pain… I have been confronted in retrograde by a new landscape of harm–this […]
Our vibe is subtle, electric, and wildYour warmth is deeply attractive and your charms make me smile You are an ancient people’s warrior king and a cybernetic genius’ childWe are bonded by the related demons that teem within our minds We have shared common struggles and bared vulnerable soulsWe seek […]
you activate my visions and animate my mindbut your hallucinogenic powers leave toxicity behind i reach for you out of habit hoping to play with timei reach for you seeking a key to the magic arising from deep inside this is dirty medicine flowing freely conjured to fuel my firei […]
you penetrate my heart–you penetrate my mind you amplify my spirit leaving angels to frolic deep inside the rhythms of my psyche are modulated by your eyes we rise to transform our world into a better child of our hybrid minds sex can transport us to sacred places and transformational […]
black men are fucking beautiful–and it hurts me that sometimes i don’t see that i was born to a black mother and a white father, with tons of white cousins but none on my mother’s side so that and systemic toxicity combined so that while only 8 or so i […]
layers of truth emerge in our minds–they refract and manifest new dimensions come into being, metamorph, and coalesce our psychic strength is evolving in sync with grounding intentional breath we must be still and hone our powers to uproot this cult of death my manic mind seeks cosmic meaning in […]
Refracting through my month of visions has been a vast pyramid with a maze underneath its enclaves house nascent spirits arising from the magical deep I am a disciple of emergent strategy as I have become a disciple of sleep I recruit an army of freedom fighters to evict our […]
visions this intense have never before penetrated my mind i see with godlike vision peering through amplified love fueled eyes fractals manifest everywhere conveying prophecies for our disciples to find this spiritual and erotic armor prepares us to leave the toxicity of this system behind i am ripening through so […]
i am so wired for you pixie angel it is visceral and it is magic my heart is opening but fearing danger we craft a connection that is free, seductive, and emphatic you take me to our own private nirvana where agents of karma vogue with gaga and madonna covered […]
our world is in the throes of a collective spiritual rebirth rebel armies conjuring godlings to imagine a sustainable place on this earth the blood wolf moon brought karmic energy with love and rage interspersed we are crafting our own destiny shaping emergent transformation that cannot be reversed our new […]
cosmological forces conjure elixirs for our sacred apothecary jedi powers rise up fueled by love arming us to do what is necessary enshrouded in beauty of soul and mind you tantalize with seductive eyes this passion is expanding exponentially awakening a global karmic fire you receive me from my travels […]
alcohol and adderall smoking up like biggy smalls toxic habits haunt us all we crave the things that make us fall lines of coke fueling pychotic breaks giving less than I fight to take forgetting how much I have at stake living in sin is make or break sex with […]
we are two but we are one karmic angels worshipping the moon and sun we are moses and abraham’s great grandsons we imagine the nascent godlings we strive to become destiny and fate drew our paths together our lives will meet their end but our souls will live forever craving […]
I write because I have to—I write because I have something to say I create because I have the right to—I imagine a world crafted by holistic ways my mind reinspired by the solstice, I imagine a new multifaceted matrix clothed in technicolor aspirations I arise from the ashes of […]
frequencies so low—heart on a string—a string that only plays solos rain made of echoes—tidal wave rushing on and on mood and emotion flow towards manic zen eros and pathos surge from deep within I long for your touch and for my heartbeat to pulsate again I dream of your […]
baby it hit so hard, I’m holding on to my chest maybe you left your mark, reminding me to forget it doesn’t matter where you are, you can keep my regret baby I got these scars, reminding me to forget you left your mark reminding me to forget the pain […]
when you call my name its like a little prayer I’m down on my knees, I want to take you there in the midnight hour i can feel your power just like a prayer you know i’ll take you there just like a voice, just like a dream your eyes […]
somebody somewhere turns off the lights somebody all alone faces the night you got to be strong when you’re out on your own because sooner or later we all sleep alone photons of love pierce encroaching clouds of grey I churn through the night and dream through the day seeking […]
I am a fractal infecting the matrix a reborn intifada uprooting the empire’s military bases from the sands of the desert where divinity recreates us we craft a reborn faith whose zeitgeist can sustain us we need a holy war to uproot this toxic fascist order a jihad of epic […]
this is a new breed of poem a hybrid-a cylon-a mutating fractal these are verses for the age of cyberpunk dystopia windows into the inner workings of our minds evolving exponentially to give us some faint hope of overthrowing the rising global fascist order i have seen visions both profound […]
give and take–hope and change healing trauma and psychic pain guilt and shame conquered by love and rage envisioning a new world molded by revolutionary ways crafting truth–connecting souls love is a power greater than their hoarded gold we breath deep and seek the gods of old meditation brings peace […]
a week of pain: a week of blame emotional nausea holds my spirit in chains. looking deep inside examining my ways aspiring to give back more than i take seeds of fire rising higher consummating revolutionary desire born to dance and to inspire praying for liberation from this psychic quagmire […]
riding the waves of heroin and speed feeding my needs but making me bleed i pray for the future that has been prophecied i pray for a world of love, justice, and peace my eyes and my mind are opened so wide i can’t keep my visions locked up deep […]
sex is elemental—nature’s most potent anti-depressive agent tantric energy rises up–giving birth to divergent rivers of erotic imagination nothing is fixed and everything is fluid i immerse my mind in manic meditation striving to remain grounded and lucid I have spent many nights absorbed in waves of hedonistic self-exploration i […]
intense self medication fuels tantric sensations brewing carnal libations to spark uninhibited exaltation we must worship the body and the mind in order to be whole and primed advancing our rising sexual liberation could force the patriarchal edifice far behind… deep in my heart i want you to feel my […]