bipolar solidarity

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RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

  I am here I should have died   I jumped from Key Bridge Plummeting into the Potomac River There was ice in the water   I should have died   I remember jumping I remember a torrid confluence of emotion  Misery, desperation, disconnection   Then I remember salvation A […]

KALI METAMORPHOSIS: anthem for dragon

We share a connection We share shamanic magic The duality of the tantric A fierce energy ecstatic   You manifest the divine Duality redefined The epic power of Kali Creation redesigned   You feast on the blood of demons Ossified skulls adorn your waist Sacred sigils frame your face Visceral […]

DARK MAGIC

  Fire writhes upward Manifesting dark magic Emanating from the root chakra Liberating my energy Animating prophetic imagination   Tantric forces amplify Awakening archetypes of masculinity Awakening my inner king My fearless rising warrior My shamanic magician My most exquisite tantalizing lover   These archetypes interbreed Under the glow of […]

DREAMER BOY

s When I see you I see nascent joy Chained by webs of self-deception   When I hear your voice Sometimes I hear honesty and vulnerability But sometimes evasion and rationalization   I feel your potential I feel your inner struggle I feel you torn in many directions Oscillating between […]

GOTHIC ANGEL

Eyes wide open Eyes wide shut You look deep within Extending your trust   Opening my mind to new culture To the zeitgeist of the moment Grounding me in the present Rooted in the path we have chosen   I call you gothic angel You are a protege of prophecy […]

WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimage I came to the sea seeking recovery To this convening of addicts Trying to change our patterns Trying to recover   It is only April The ocean is still cold But I walked into her arms three times yesterday   I waded in with the dawn […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through water Coursing like seismic electricity Invoking cosmic destiny Molding a conjecture with prophecy This visceral manifestation of what I feel for you   You are my sponsees My karmic proteges Conjuring inner magic Reverberating like kinetic static Through these waters of synergy   I believe […]

Letter to Ahmed

You were a pillar of my life For more than twelve years I swam in your waters Guided by a prophetic light   Your conviction was contagious Your energy visceral Your power of persuasion electric and magnetic   Now that you have passed I feel a painful absence Aching like […]

COSMIC RADIATION

  You ripple with orogeny Subterranean power flowing Energy emanating from the ocean floor   Pulsating through your veins Descending like sacred air Your presence is magnetic Channelling collective hope and pain   This leather animates your sensuality Projecting emancipated corporeality Your cosmic chemistry transcends borders Psychic electricity conjures prophecy […]

HYDRAULIC SEX

You are thunder amidst the rain You swim in the river that keeps me sane Erotic power flows through your veins We recover from apocalypse With whatever remains   Your image evokes the carnal Licentious gym sex You pulsate with intensity You flirt and seduce–grind and flex   Deep within […]

WILDFIRE

I feel power Seismic power Epic tantric forces Morphing and transforming Molding sacred hours   I danced tonight Spirit moved Finding grooves Animating vulnerability Amplifying sensuality   My journey is cosmic I channel potent spiritual energy   Transmuting manic chaos Creating introspection Liberated from psychic wildfire   I feel prophecy […]

NEURODIVERGENT

  What if my evolving diagnosis Is so much more than pathology? What if it’s not illness? What if its capacity?   I feel these burning questions Reverberating karmically I feel the power of empathy Fractals of neurodivergent chemistry   These fractals of psychotropic water Synaptic fluid pregnant with power […]

CLEAN DATE: a bypo journal

February 26th Is just a date A marker in time An outpost amidst psychic wildlings   For me it is my clean date Today—my two year anniversary Two years without drugs, including alcohol Two years of recovery Two years of spiritual growth   The valence of my mental oscillations is […]

VISIONS

My visions My visions again   A vista of river reverberating with light Ripples and undulations become a Cylon matrix   I see my pantheon of erotic disciples My inspirations, my collaborators, my co-conspirators   It is you—cyberpunk boricua Returning persuasively Insistently Helping me imagine our path   I realize […]

TRAUMA SURVIVORS ANONYMOUS: a bypo journal

I sit by the water—I came here to write….The river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energy…It reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mind—to write about the social construct known as bipolar disorder…This diagnosis has been an […]

TRUST MUSCLE: a journal entry

This is my chosen place to write—it is close to my heart: my trust muscle…I sit at the convergence of two rivers and marvel at the magic of the water’s constant motion—maybe this is a metaphor I seek energy from the intricate swirls of wood composing the wharf like so […]

SACRED EYE

I am evolving and deepening my awareness… With the shackles of addiction in remission I live in gratitude and in joy… I live on the manic depressive spectrum—tending towards states of hypomania and mania… Eliminating the toxicity of substances of abuse has helped me stabilize, but the powers within that […]

NOT YOUR POISON

I am a human being suffering from the human condition—I am psychosis and neurosis: I am mania and depression…I feel things to the bone and I seek the deepest truth—I imagine my tribe as a cyber-wired battalion of Jedi troops…I am not your poison—I am not psychically toxic…I register the […]

MAGNETIC WATER

It was my first night on the psych ward…I submerged the Bible in the toilet—imagining that I would recreate the sacred text over the course of my stay…I imagined that the water would unearth messages and channel symbols not visible to the naked eye… Floridly manic and coming down from […]

TRUTH SERUM: a journal entry

Last night, the moon communed with Jupiter—someone told me to ask for what I want because I just might get it…with synapses firing at speeds faster than light, I asked for insight and foresight—I asked for knowledge of my noble purpose… today, I had a soul to soul convergence with […]

TANTRIC UNDERGROUND

our vixens and our hustlers conjure epic supernatural sentience we deduce spiritual principles from the fulcrum of our collective experience erotic anthems seduce the mind arming us with tantric prescience erotic armadas patrol the scintillating seas of magical dialectical consciousness   we conspire and inspire to build a global tantric […]

CULTURAL HIPHOP MATRIX

country twang meets harlem swing—an old town road to the world we begin…marinating and meditating—fornicating and innovating…enjoying the beat driving hard and synched—summoning the will to nurture and the will to resist…this poem is an ode to the dynamo known as lil NasX—he spits rhymes that inspire us to flip […]

BARRICADE FREAKS

we are barricade freaks rocking prada in the street—we style our rage in platinum shades shining strong and rolling deep…the sacred healing we seek amplifies our quest for psychic peace—our erotic tectonics seduce the commanders of our dreadnought fleet…as barricade freaks we charge ferociously into the streets—we dodge rubber bullets […]

STACATTO IMAGINATION

my mind reverberates at hypomanic speed to the rhythms of the flickering flames–seven multicolored pillars of fire surround my sacred circle of evolving recovery arising untamed… this monument to the pyromanic is made of the vestiges of dozens of votives…i summon powers of magical incantation from a pantheon of sacred […]

URGENCY

manic zen from deep within fusing sin with oxygen–possibilities writhe and morph revealing potent visions usually accessed psychedelically…i have seen vivid fractals unfolding before my closed eyes…i have felt tantric erotic power erupting deep inside… in this wretched moment civilization is at stake–but i am removed from the world of […]

ELECTRIC LIGHT

a flame explodes into view, so emblematic of our rage…we rise up to reconstitute a nation that was built to conquer and enslave…these are florid and manic nights followed by meditative and introspective days–we are trying to reinvent ourselves as a tsunami that can cleanse all of this emotional pain…light […]