bipolar solidarity

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ANGEL PHOENIX PROPHECY: chronicles of new york

  Words fail to describe This manic energy we feel Stepping off of that bus Enraptured by the gravity of Gotham   This is New York City A mania inducing metropolis Its rhythm potent and virile Its demons ghostly and feral   This feeling ecstatic and restless This fervent euphoric […]

KALEIDOSCOPE EYES

  Your manic eyes Our manic minds Evolving genius Psychotic disguise   We throb and dance Rhythm deep within These sparks again Arising for the win   Inspiring insight Manifesting foresight Tectonic alchemy Creating spiritual reality   Your eyes are magic Your kaleidoscope of color Reflecting intensity Conjuring prophecy and […]

PORTAL OF DIVINATION

  This poem has been germinating Gestating in a sacred chrysalis Integrating penetrating insights Your dance converging with mine   You read these tarot cards Seeing currents of transformation Witnessing my spirit Counseling detachment from outcomes   This current is wise These waters intelligent I must be conduit, not ego […]

DISSECTING REJECTION

  I am a lonely soul Heartbeat slow and cold In my rejection I am alone Toxic fear holds the throne   We write by this fire Spirit dissatisfied and weary Fear is duality Both captor and protector   I fear my desires Ashamed of this lust My passion is […]

GEOMAGNETIC REVELATION

  This is a firestorm A geomagnetic conflagration Permeating the atmosphere Stimulating imagination   Hearts beat in unison Heeding rhythms deep inside Linking our psyches Unchaining our minds   Our people soar high We also crash low Tendencies accentuated By geomagnetic flow   The energy orgasmic The alchemy dynamic Animating […]

SACRED LINEAGE

You are my protege My sponsee and my friend Absorbing your magnetic chemistry I feel fierce pride   We are a zeitgeist Evolving a lineage Crafting sacred lore Conspiring to amplify joy   We decolonize psychiatry Fusing divergent traditions Merging shamanic wisdom With psychotropic precision   We balance one another […]

RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

  I am here I should have died   I jumped from Key Bridge Plummeting into the Potomac River There was ice in the water   I should have died   I remember jumping I remember a torrid confluence of emotion  Misery, desperation, disconnection   Then I remember salvation A […]

KALI METAMORPHOSIS: anthem for dragon

We share a connection We share shamanic magic The duality of the tantric A fierce energy ecstatic   You manifest the divine Duality redefined The epic power of Kali Creation redesigned   You feast on the blood of demons Ossified skulls adorn your waist Sacred sigils frame your face Visceral […]

DARK MAGIC

  Fire writhes upward Manifesting dark magic Emanating from the root chakra Liberating my energy Animating prophetic imagination   Tantric forces amplify Awakening archetypes of masculinity Awakening my inner king My fearless rising warrior My shamanic magician My most exquisite tantalizing lover   These archetypes interbreed Under the glow of […]

DREAMER BOY

s When I see you I see nascent joy Chained by webs of self-deception   When I hear your voice Sometimes I hear honesty and vulnerability But sometimes evasion and rationalization   I feel your potential I feel your inner struggle I feel you torn in many directions Oscillating between […]

GOTHIC ANGEL

Eyes wide open Eyes wide shut You look deep within Extending your trust   Opening my mind to new culture To the zeitgeist of the moment Grounding me in the present Rooted in the path we have chosen   I call you gothic angel You are a protege of prophecy […]

WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimage I came to the sea seeking recovery To this convening of addicts Trying to change our patterns Trying to recover   It is only April The ocean is still cold But I walked into her arms three times yesterday   I waded in with the dawn […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through water Coursing like seismic electricity Invoking cosmic destiny Molding a conjecture with prophecy This visceral manifestation of what I feel for you   You are my sponsees My karmic proteges Conjuring inner magic Reverberating like kinetic static Through these waters of synergy   I believe […]

Letter to Ahmed

You were a pillar of my life For more than twelve years I swam in your waters Guided by a prophetic light   Your conviction was contagious Your energy visceral Your power of persuasion electric and magnetic   Now that you have passed I feel a painful absence Aching like […]

COSMIC RADIATION

  You ripple with orogeny Subterranean power flowing Energy emanating from the ocean floor   Pulsating through your veins Descending like sacred air Your presence is magnetic Channelling collective hope and pain   This leather animates your sensuality Projecting emancipated corporeality Your cosmic chemistry transcends borders Psychic electricity conjures prophecy […]

HYDRAULIC SEX

You are thunder amidst the rain You swim in the river that keeps me sane Erotic power flows through your veins We recover from apocalypse With whatever remains   Your image evokes the carnal Licentious gym sex You pulsate with intensity You flirt and seduce–grind and flex   Deep within […]

WILDFIRE

I feel power Seismic power Epic tantric forces Morphing and transforming Molding sacred hours   I danced tonight Spirit moved Finding grooves Animating vulnerability Amplifying sensuality   My journey is cosmic I channel potent spiritual energy   Transmuting manic chaos Creating introspection Liberated from psychic wildfire   I feel prophecy […]

NEURODIVERGENT

  What if my evolving diagnosis Is so much more than pathology? What if it’s not illness? What if its capacity?   I feel these burning questions Reverberating karmically I feel the power of empathy Fractals of neurodivergent chemistry   These fractals of psychotropic water Synaptic fluid pregnant with power […]

CLEAN DATE: a bypo journal

February 26th Is just a date A marker in time An outpost amidst psychic wildlings   For me it is my clean date Today—my two year anniversary Two years without drugs, including alcohol Two years of recovery Two years of spiritual growth   The valence of my mental oscillations is […]

VISIONS

My visions My visions again   A vista of river reverberating with light Ripples and undulations become a Cylon matrix   I see my pantheon of erotic disciples My inspirations, my collaborators, my co-conspirators   It is you—cyberpunk boricua Returning persuasively Insistently Helping me imagine our path   I realize […]

TRAUMA SURVIVORS ANONYMOUS: a bypo journal

I sit by the water—I came here to write….The river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energy…It reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mind—to write about the social construct known as bipolar disorder…This diagnosis has been an […]

TRUST MUSCLE: a journal entry

This is my chosen place to write—it is close to my heart: my trust muscle…I sit at the convergence of two rivers and marvel at the magic of the water’s constant motion—maybe this is a metaphor I seek energy from the intricate swirls of wood composing the wharf like so […]

SACRED EYE

I am evolving and deepening my awareness… With the shackles of addiction in remission I live in gratitude and in joy… I live on the manic depressive spectrum—tending towards states of hypomania and mania… Eliminating the toxicity of substances of abuse has helped me stabilize, but the powers within that […]

NOT YOUR POISON

I am a human being suffering from the human condition—I am psychosis and neurosis: I am mania and depression…I feel things to the bone and I seek the deepest truth—I imagine my tribe as a cyber-wired battalion of Jedi troops…I am not your poison—I am not psychically toxic…I register the […]

MAGNETIC WATER

It was my first night on the psych ward…I submerged the Bible in the toilet—imagining that I would recreate the sacred text over the course of my stay…I imagined that the water would unearth messages and channel symbols not visible to the naked eye… Floridly manic and coming down from […]

TRUTH SERUM: a journal entry

Last night, the moon communed with Jupiter—someone told me to ask for what I want because I just might get it…with synapses firing at speeds faster than light, I asked for insight and foresight—I asked for knowledge of my noble purpose… today, I had a soul to soul convergence with […]