Pulsations of mania All consuming Magnifying creativity Feeding psychic confusion Time collapses The present is the fulcrum Sequestered trauma explodes Epic emotional overload I remember lost friendships Feeling visceral pain Flooded by resentment This inferno in my brain We need love in these moments We need […]
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I worship spirit Gazing at my fire altar I am transforming I am evolving Integrating new insights I work to release To let go of shadows Patterns that longer serve me I see my birth chart in new light Libra energy calls for balance Pausing with intention […]
I write at dawn Under this waning full moon Tides of emotion in these cards Hybrid energy fills the room I called forth this reading Seeking connection and direction Summoning power for this project Inviting alchemy and inception I explore this hybrid divination This conversation between oracle […]
This is a poem about change The pain of change The agony of the caterpillar Dissolving to become a butterfly This chrysalis of transformation A fulcrum of microcosmic evolution Evolving from pain A butterfly emerges from flames In fear of the future But with a visceral and […]
Words fail to describe This manic energy we feel Stepping off of that bus Enraptured by the gravity of Gotham This is New York City A mania inducing metropolis Its rhythm potent and virile Its demons ghostly and feral This feeling ecstatic and restless This fervent euphoric […]
Your manic eyes Our manic minds Evolving genius Psychotic disguise We throb and dance Rhythm deep within These sparks again Arising for the win Inspiring insight Manifesting foresight Tectonic alchemy Creating spiritual reality Your eyes are magic Your kaleidoscope of color Reflecting intensity Conjuring prophecy and […]
This poem has been germinating Gestating in a sacred chrysalis Integrating penetrating insights Your dance converging with mine You read these tarot cards Seeing currents of transformation Witnessing my spirit Counseling detachment from outcomes This current is wise These waters intelligent I must be conduit, not ego […]
I am a lonely soul Heartbeat slow and cold In my rejection I am alone Toxic fear holds the throne We write by this fire Spirit dissatisfied and weary Fear is duality Both captor and protector I fear my desires Ashamed of this lust My passion is […]
This is a firestorm A geomagnetic conflagration Permeating the atmosphere Stimulating imagination Hearts beat in unison Heeding rhythms deep inside Linking our psyches Unchaining our minds Our people soar high We also crash low Tendencies accentuated By geomagnetic flow The energy orgasmic The alchemy dynamic Animating […]
You are my protege My sponsee and my friend Absorbing your magnetic chemistry I feel fierce pride We are a zeitgeist Evolving a lineage Crafting sacred lore Conspiring to amplify joy We decolonize psychiatry Fusing divergent traditions Merging shamanic wisdom With psychotropic precision We balance one another […]
I am here I should have died I jumped from Key Bridge Plummeting into the Potomac River There was ice in the water I should have died I remember jumping I remember a torrid confluence of emotion Misery, desperation, disconnection Then I remember salvation A […]
We share a connection We share shamanic magic The duality of the tantric A fierce energy ecstatic You manifest the divine Duality redefined The epic power of Kali Creation redesigned You feast on the blood of demons Ossified skulls adorn your waist Sacred sigils frame your face Visceral […]
Fire writhes upward Manifesting dark magic Emanating from the root chakra Liberating my energy Animating prophetic imagination Tantric forces amplify Awakening archetypes of masculinity Awakening my inner king My fearless rising warrior My shamanic magician My most exquisite tantalizing lover These archetypes interbreed Under the glow of […]
GOTHIs When I see you I see nascent joy Chained by webs of self-deception When I hear your voice Sometimes I hear honesty and vulnerability But sometimes evasion and rationalization I feel your potential I feel your inner struggle I feel you torn in many directions Oscillating between […]
Eyes wide open Eyes wide shut You look deep within Extending your trust Opening my mind to new culture To the zeitgeist of the moment Grounding me in the present Rooted in the path we have chosen I call you gothic angel You are a protege of prophecy […]
I made this pilgrimage I came to the sea seeking recovery To this convening of addicts Trying to change our patterns Trying to recover It is only April The ocean is still cold But I walked into her arms three times yesterday I waded in with the dawn […]
Blue light ricochets through water Coursing like seismic electricity Invoking cosmic destiny Molding a conjecture with prophecy This visceral manifestation of what I feel for you You are my sponsees My karmic proteges Conjuring inner magic Reverberating like kinetic static Through these waters of synergy I believe […]
You were a pillar of my life For more than twelve years I swam in your waters Guided by a prophetic light Your conviction was contagious Your energy visceral Your power of persuasion electric and magnetic Now that you have passed I feel a painful absence Aching like […]
You ripple with orogeny Subterranean power flowing Energy emanating from the ocean floor Pulsating through your veins Descending like sacred air Your presence is magnetic Channelling collective hope and pain This leather animates your sensuality Projecting emancipated corporeality Your cosmic chemistry transcends borders Psychic electricity conjures prophecy […]
You are thunder amidst the rain You swim in the river that keeps me sane Erotic power flows through your veins We recover from apocalypse With whatever remains Your image evokes the carnal Licentious gym sex You pulsate with intensity You flirt and seduce–grind and flex Deep within […]
I feel power Seismic power Epic tantric forces Morphing and transforming Molding sacred hours I danced tonight Spirit moved Finding grooves Animating vulnerability Amplifying sensuality My journey is cosmic I channel potent spiritual energy Transmuting manic chaos Creating introspection Liberated from psychic wildfire I feel prophecy […]
What if my evolving diagnosis Is so much more than pathology? What if it’s not illness? What if its capacity? I feel these burning questions Reverberating karmically I feel the power of empathy Fractals of neurodivergent chemistry These fractals of psychotropic water Synaptic fluid pregnant with power […]
February 26th Is just a date A marker in time An outpost amidst psychic wildlings For me it is my clean date Today—my two year anniversary Two years without drugs, including alcohol Two years of recovery Two years of spiritual growth The valence of my mental oscillations is […]
My visions My visions again A vista of river reverberating with light Ripples and undulations become a Cylon matrix I see my pantheon of erotic disciples My inspirations, my collaborators, my co-conspirators It is you—cyberpunk boricua Returning persuasively Insistently Helping me imagine our path I realize […]
I sit by the water—I came here to write….The river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energy…It reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mind—to write about the social construct known as bipolar disorder…This diagnosis has been an […]
This is my chosen place to write—it is close to my heart: my trust muscle…I sit at the convergence of two rivers and marvel at the magic of the water’s constant motion—maybe this is a metaphor I seek energy from the intricate swirls of wood composing the wharf like so […]