Recovery

30 posts

WEAPON OF LIBERATION

  You were in the world but not of it You told of awful things You created from a cradle of pain A dad sized cavity in your spirit   What if I could have been your friend? Helping you set boundaries Could you have escaped tragedy The scourge of […]

RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

  I am here I should have died   I jumped from Key Bridge Plummeting into the Potomac River There was ice in the water   I should have died   I remember jumping I remember a torrid confluence of emotion  Misery, desperation, disconnection   Then I remember salvation A […]

DISCO NOBILITY

We floss and flex We rise and grind Reinventing time Realigning our minds   We share the work of recovery I feel this fierce pride Loving you like family Our connection a sacred fire   We are disco nobility Empowered by virility Dancing with destiny Embodying artistry   Armed with […]

SINGULARITY

Light and shadow Cause and effect One and the same What comes next   I want your curse I want your disease This is sacred medicine Pain pleases me   We move through time Hurdling through space Tasting the fifth dimension Experiencing the spiritual plane   I am the singularity […]

DREAMER BOY

s When I see you I see nascent joy Chained by webs of self-deception   When I hear your voice Sometimes I hear honesty and vulnerability But sometimes evasion and rationalization   I feel your potential I feel your inner struggle I feel you torn in many directions Oscillating between […]

RECOVERY PIMPS

We move with epic style Versace shades beguile We seek transcendent freedom Freedom from shame and denial   I strive to light your way A path from drugs we crave We name the roots of pain Nurturing a sacred flame   We strut and flaunt our fur Rebranding this holy […]

GOTHIC ANGEL

Eyes wide open Eyes wide shut You look deep within Extending your trust   Opening my mind to new culture To the zeitgeist of the moment Grounding me in the present Rooted in the path we have chosen   I call you gothic angel You are a protege of prophecy […]

ECSTATIC JOY

    I feel joy Ecstatic joy Connection with these beings Connection with deep waters of transformation   Godlings of rain bless this space today The land inundated Water finding the path of least resistance Flowing serpentine   Abram’s Creek a deluge Pregnant with energy and healing Connecting us with […]

LIBATIONS FOR AN ADDICT

This is raw emotion Barely processed reflexive emotion Feelings swimming amidst violent cliffs Lurching in divergent directions Seeking cathartic expression Seeking connection   We loved you We loved you fiercely If only you could have felt the joy of you The humility and vulnerability The visceral presence of connection   […]

CARNAGE and MAGIC

i As Black folk We rise from oceans of trauma Seas of historic pain   We recover like webs of oak trees Deeply rooted in the earth Roots interlocking and interwoven Fortified against hurricane   Our journey begins again This sacred pilgrimage Converging to create anticapitalist community   Drawing strength […]

WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimage I came to the sea seeking recovery To this convening of addicts Trying to change our patterns Trying to recover   It is only April The ocean is still cold But I walked into her arms three times yesterday   I waded in with the dawn […]

PROPHET OF YEARNING

You were a sacrifice An offering from the sacred A voice for a generation Prophet of liberation Prophet of yearning   I ride by this river Feeling subterranean vibrations This water helps my spirit cry River tears of absolution and restitution   Black shadow resonates On the surface of sacred […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through water Coursing like seismic electricity Invoking cosmic destiny Molding a conjecture with prophecy This visceral manifestation of what I feel for you   You are my sponsees My karmic proteges Conjuring inner magic Reverberating like kinetic static Through these waters of synergy   I believe […]

RESILIENCE

I see fire in this painting Strength born from pain I see resilience and perseverance   I see the resurgent power of creation Power to remold fate Rivers of color modulate Churning with the resilience of imagination   I feel my own journey of recovery Reflected in viscous paint So […]

REMIND ME TO FORGET

Memories Haunting me Leaving me No air to breathe   Destiny Mystery Haunting me Taunting me   I come to write I come to witness Hundreds of birds Flocking to the sun The day has begun Mind and body are one   I feel deep pain Reverberating inside I wish […]

HYDRAULIC SEX

You are thunder amidst the rain You swim in the river that keeps me sane Erotic power flows through your veins We recover from apocalypse With whatever remains   Your image evokes the carnal Licentious gym sex You pulsate with intensity You flirt and seduce–grind and flex   Deep within […]

SOLSTICE HONESTY: a bypo journal

I come to the deep blue black of my river I come to take my inventory To get honest To get radically honest   It is the night of the summer solstice I feel called to illuminate my inner world Called to reflect our sun’s infinite light I shine this […]

ADDICT POTENTIAL

I come through sand Reverberating with karmic potential   I come for the sun Rising from beyond the ocean   We are survivors of addiction A ruthless affliction Gathered to share our stories Staying clean one day at a time   Our disease is insidious Brutal and persistent   We […]

CLEAN DATE: a bypo journal

February 26th Is just a date A marker in time An outpost amidst psychic wildlings   For me it is my clean date Today—my two year anniversary Two years without drugs, including alcohol Two years of recovery Two years of spiritual growth   The valence of my mental oscillations is […]

TRAUMA SURVIVORS ANONYMOUS: a bypo journal

I sit by the water—I came here to write….The river ebbs and flows and pulsates with energy…It reverberates with the power to sustain life and the power to take it… I came to write about my mind—to write about the social construct known as bipolar disorder…This diagnosis has been an […]

THE ZEN OF RECOVERY

Here I am: right were I need to be… This perfect June sky approaching sunset—delicate blues and pinks dancing in the stratosphere Dancing like we danced in the streets hours ago—celebrating the growing power of the struggle for trans and queer liberation…. This is my first fully clean Pride… The […]

ORACLE OF THE SNAKE

  Snake medicine pulsates through my being, unleashing immense powers of creativity—bringing psychic energy into awareness and channeling this magic towards our need for healing… The kundalini power arising from the root chakra ascends through our snake-like spinal column…I envision a serpentine double-helix armoring our spines and our minds through […]

STACATTO IMAGINATION

my mind reverberates at hypomanic speed to the rhythms of the flickering flames–seven multicolored pillars of fire surround my sacred circle of evolving recovery arising untamed… this monument to the pyromanic is made of the vestiges of dozens of votives…i summon powers of magical incantation from a pantheon of sacred […]

TRUST THE PROCESS

  this is a poem about recovery–a poem as metaphor for my journey towards synchronicity with my higher power…none of us created the scaffolding of the 12-step universe–no one created it because we co-created as a decentralized collective building on the insights of those who came before…and we continually create […]

PSYCHEDELIC JESUS

light and sound become energized and fused into one–we see fractals in the moon and volcanic power in the sun…psychedelic synergy has transformed who we are and what we can become–we project universal liberation as the cosmic project that is to be done…i have learned that i do not need […]

ANANSI

i am a vessel for sacred forces arising in a moment of unprecedented global peril–we must draw strength from our collective unconscious to resist a fascist menace that has grown ruthless, desperate, and feral…i am anansi the spider weaving webs of wisdom, life, and love–i transmute psychic pain and crisis […]