I am evolving and deepening my awareness… With the shackles of addiction in remission I live in gratitude and in joy… I live on the manic depressive spectrum—tending towards states of hypomania and mania… Eliminating the toxicity of substances of abuse has helped me stabilize, but the powers within that […]
mania
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It was my first night on the psych wardI submerged the Bible in the toiletimagining that I would recreate the sacred text over the course of my stayI imagined that the water would unearth messages and channel symbols not visible to the naked eye Floridly manic and coming down from […]
Last night, the moon communed with Jupiter—someone told me to ask for what I want because I just might get it…with synapses firing at speeds faster than light, I asked for insight and foresight—I asked for knowledge of my noble purpose… today, I had a soul to soul convergence with […]
our vixens and our hustlers conjure epic supernatural sentiencewe deduce spiritual principles from the fulcrum of our collective experienceerotic anthems seduce the mind arming us with tantric prescienceerotic armadas patrol the scintillating seas of magical dialectical consciousness we conspire and inspire to build a global tantric subterraneanwe feel our spirits […]
dancers stomp, twist, and writhegiving voice to desires pent up deep insidewe long to rise as one and mobilizeour subaltern armies will rule the night our democracy is plagued and under siegewe need cyberpunk power to keep the peacenazis and fascists will come rolling deepbut we are samurai neurodivergents who reclaim […]
manic zen from deep within fusing sin with oxygenpossibilities writhe and morph revealing potent visions usually accessed psychedelically i have seen vivid fractals unfolding before my closed eyesi have felt tantric erotic power erupting deep inside in this wretched moment civilization is at stakebut i am removed from the world […]
Our vibe is subtle, electric, and wildYour warmth is deeply attractive and your charms make me smile You are an ancient people’s warrior king and a cybernetic genius’ childWe are bonded by the related demons that teem within our minds We have shared common struggles and bared vulnerable soulsWe seek […]
we write in code, with data entombed, in tunnels of platinum and tunnels of goldmy river remolds the depths of your soul, conjuring a sacred passion that grows hot and bold this cypher we craft conjures cylon futures, where the contours of AI will meld with our naturethis arabic script […]
i feel fucking perfect–animated by a precise balance between intoxication and sobrietythe sinuous sacred geometry of the immense creativity permeating this space keeps my imagination firing on all cylinders is it emergent strategy in all its nuance and potency?is it love and comradery and the fellowship of movement building?i want […]
] you see us dance among you, but fail to sense our jedi powers in emergencewe conjure rites of love and liberation aspiring towards an all encompassing transformational resurgencewe sync our bypo minds through the meditative practices of erotic pleasure and serviceI can’t choose my apocalypse squad but i can […]
lost in the grip of neurochemical riptides, i grope for an anchor or for a potent dose of dopamine age old addictions resurge like pathologies ravaging interpersonal trust so viscerally and so suddenly i have sown the seeds of a pernicious strand of sex addiction amplified by the allure of […]
we are the ones we’ve been waiting for we are a people becoming an army knocking on destiny’s door we aspire to become living gods or at least to become more we throw down to the house beat driving our armored boots into the floor cosmology and astrology conjure reborn […]
hypnotic, erotic, and intensely and viscerally exotic we weave our way through this matrix evolving towards the supersonic deeply inspired by potent and ancient pagan poetry we meditate to rebalance and hone jedi powers when we breathe we invent our own religion forged of the spiritual and the carnal we […]
like angels, we seek signs of evolving life at the end of the dank, dark, and isolating depressive tunnel like aztec warriors, monster queer muslim and sephardic cylon buddhas resist the proto-fascist cop-enforced kettle we seek solidarity and transcendent love: our sharpest tools in the quest to conquer our past […]
hospitalized for the umpteenth time–i medicate my mind while i relax and unwind confined in these walls–in the georgetown psych ward visited by karmic angels i have loved and adored fire is a force: a living act of entropy–fueled by wax and oxygen–or by proto-manic gasoline within these walls so […]
they walk among us disrobed and disguised i seek fulfillment and connection when i stare into their eyes seductive but liminal—both here and away we fuck through the night and we do lines to welcome the day i pray for my angels—i pray for my mind our lust is a […]
our minds teem with divine and sentient seeds roving connecting bringing consciousness into being psychiatry forces neurodiversity into boxes consumed with pathologization and discredited logic discreet diagnoses overlap and interbreed creating a world full of NEOs we resist neoliberal hegemony and imagine new ways of sensing cosmic signals psychosocial distress […]
enraptured by this moment i see energy everywhere hieroglyphics coat the sidewalk and magical pixies dance with your hair emotional release and mutual aid are our most potent medications we need to heal our hearts and feed our souls reinventing this toxic nation legions of sisters are coming forward exposing […]
lights flash extending potent and penetrating rays i contemplate the cosmos absorbed in its seductive gaze with every passing instant i grow into this strength i fathom the galaxy’s width, its depth, and its length our backyard was pregnant with potent energy temples inscribed in the earth open for only […]
breathing deep i feel my power—sensing my synapses hour by hour in this euphoric place i see so much—the porous boundaries between love, lust, and trust manic zen is the name i have crafted for this state—i feel energy in every neuron that animates by brain i focus the exponential […]
thoroughly consumed by manic zen my imagination is flying free i pray that the lithium will do its work and keep the most perilous demons buried deep psychopharmacology is a science but its practice is mostly an art finding the right cocktail involves many detours and innumerable false starts the […]
the night is pregnant with possibilities aroused and penetrated by my manic brain the joy is punctuated with urgency—and i am anything but insane we are organizing with all our strength to uproot a totalitarian regime we are fighting to amplify our many struggles using all of our arsenal deployed […]
so intoxicating—the pulsating aroma of erotic masculinity so consuming—the unquenchable thirst for carnal company manic zen is my home in these hours i feel crescendos of ecstasy and sensual power i long for nothing more potent than to share this energy with another in this space on my spectrum i […]
flying high on dopamine i see visions in the sky hieroglyphics everywhere seducing my mind late at night when i close my eyes i see wormholes to distant galaxies we must resist the pathologization of our tribe’s neurodiversity i dream in staccato rhythms–refueling energy for the day ahead i am […]
we are slaves to technology—and to the class in control we transcribe a new pedagogy—reclaiming the creative human soul the ancient rites of fire deserve a postmodern rebirth fire destroys but it also gives birth i meditate to flames fueled by wax and harder drugs i will my mind to […]
the light of distant stars refracts through our atmosphere crafting a tapestry ripe for exploration by our evolving imagination clouds morph and transform becoming new things and then disintegrating as quickly as they first cohered we remember our stories and our pasts but so often lose the moments if i […]