addiction

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CHRYSALIS

  This is a poem about change The pain of change The agony of the caterpillar Dissolving to become a butterfly   This chrysalis of transformation A fulcrum of microcosmic evolution   Evolving from pain A butterfly emerges from flames In fear of the future But with a visceral and […]

ANGEL PHOENIX PROPHECY: chronicles of new york

  Words fail to describe This manic energy we feel Stepping off of that bus Enraptured by the gravity of Gotham   This is New York City A mania inducing metropolis Its rhythm potent and virile Its demons ghostly and feral   This feeling ecstatic and restless This fervent euphoric […]

KALEIDOSCOPE EYES

  Your manic eyes Our manic minds Evolving genius Psychotic disguise   We throb and dance Rhythm deep within These sparks again Arising for the win   Inspiring insight Manifesting foresight Tectonic alchemy Creating spiritual reality   Your eyes are magic Your kaleidoscope of color Reflecting intensity Conjuring prophecy and […]

MANIC ORACLE

  Tonight I seek guidance I yearn to know To see where I end To know where you begin   I strive to guide you Navigating manic waves I seek our emergent oracle Sacred wisdom Amidst this psychic storm   You are my manic angel My creative protege My spirit […]

DISSECTING REJECTION

  I am a lonely soul Heartbeat slow and cold In my rejection I am alone Toxic fear holds the throne   We write by this fire Spirit dissatisfied and weary Fear is duality Both captor and protector   I fear my desires Ashamed of this lust My passion is […]

SACRED LINEAGE

You are my protege My sponsee and my friend Absorbing your magnetic chemistry I feel fierce pride   We are a zeitgeist Evolving a lineage Crafting sacred lore Conspiring to amplify joy   We decolonize psychiatry Fusing divergent traditions Merging shamanic wisdom With psychotropic precision   We balance one another […]

JOY EXTINGUISHED: eulogy for Gus

Your voice prophetic Your spirit magnetic Goth boy fire Your energy electric   I look you in your eyes Like I know your pain Toxins flood your veins Songs of guilt and shame   Trying not to cry too loud Weeping in silence Searing pain in your gut Words to […]

WEAPON OF LIBERATION

  You were in the world but not of it You told of awful things You created from a cradle of pain A dad sized cavity in your spirit   What if I could have been your friend? Helping you set boundaries Could you have escaped tragedy The scourge of […]

RESURRECTION: a bypo journal

  I am here I should have died   I jumped from Key Bridge Plummeting into the Potomac River There was ice in the water   I should have died   I remember jumping I remember a torrid confluence of emotion  Misery, desperation, disconnection   Then I remember salvation A […]

DISCO NOBILITY

We floss and flex We rise and grind Reinventing time Realigning our minds   We share the work of recovery I feel this fierce pride Loving you like family Our connection a sacred fire   We are disco nobility Empowered by virility Dancing with destiny Embodying artistry   Armed with […]

SHAMANIC

In this space On this land Energy flows through me Magic transpires   I write in the dark of night Amidst the rhythms of rain Shamanic power conjures the elements Pulsating with the vitality of life Nurturing an inferno of resilience within   The omnisexual erotic unfolds Bodies touch and […]

DREAMER BOY

s When I see you I see nascent joy Chained by webs of self-deception   When I hear your voice Sometimes I hear honesty and vulnerability But sometimes evasion and rationalization   I feel your potential I feel your inner struggle I feel you torn in many directions Oscillating between […]

RECOVERY PIMPS

We move with epic style Versace shades beguile We seek transcendent freedom Freedom from shame and denial   I strive to light your way A path from drugs we crave We name the roots of pain Nurturing a sacred flame   We strut and flaunt our fur Rebranding this holy […]

HOMAGE

We are raised to venerate family It is said that we are equally related within our nuclear families Equally related to our parents and to our siblings   Genetically this is true But energetically and spiritually I know there is no one closer to me than my brother   By […]

WATER KING

I am ensconced in recovery Emblazoned by surrender Rewired by these waters Rivers of transformation flowing together   I am the water king An aquatic tantric magician I resurrect ancient prophecy I create my own religion   My throne is luminous My kingdom egalitarian Neurodivergence fuels our purpose Waters of […]

GOTHIC ANGEL

Eyes wide open Eyes wide shut You look deep within Extending your trust   Opening my mind to new culture To the zeitgeist of the moment Grounding me in the present Rooted in the path we have chosen   I call you gothic angel You are a protege of prophecy […]

ECSTATIC JOY

    I feel joy Ecstatic joy Connection with these beings Connection with deep waters of transformation   Godlings of rain bless this space today The land inundated Water finding the path of least resistance Flowing serpentine   Abram’s Creek a deluge Pregnant with energy and healing Connecting us with […]

LIBATIONS FOR AN ADDICT

This is raw emotion Barely processed reflexive emotion Feelings swimming amidst violent cliffs Lurching in divergent directions Seeking cathartic expression Seeking connection   We loved you We loved you fiercely If only you could have felt the joy of you The humility and vulnerability The visceral presence of connection   […]

WATERS OF RECOVERY

I made this pilgrimage I came to the sea seeking recovery To this convening of addicts Trying to change our patterns Trying to recover   It is only April The ocean is still cold But I walked into her arms three times yesterday   I waded in with the dawn […]

PROPHET OF YEARNING

You were a sacrifice An offering from the sacred A voice for a generation Prophet of liberation Prophet of yearning   I ride by this river Feeling subterranean vibrations This water helps my spirit cry River tears of absolution and restitution   Black shadow resonates On the surface of sacred […]

PROTEGES of PROPHECY

  Blue light ricochets through water Coursing like seismic electricity Invoking cosmic destiny Molding a conjecture with prophecy This visceral manifestation of what I feel for you   You are my sponsees My karmic proteges Conjuring inner magic Reverberating like kinetic static Through these waters of synergy   I believe […]

MANIFEST PHOENIX: a bypo journal

I write by deep waters Deep frigid winter waters As Jupiter aligns with Venus I write about what I am becoming Words of metamorphosis and transformation   Emerging as a manifest phoenix I seek profound humility Powers of compassion and empathy Of emotional synergy and alchemy   Orogeny is a […]

CANNIBAL

Explosive emotions Burning inside Luscious narrative Before my eyes   A film about cannibals An epic apocryphal Erotic power elemental Connecting with fire in us all   Blood is your water You thirst to go further Manifesting forever Writhing together   You are a vesper of transformation Emerging from an […]

FORTITUDE

Exuding titanic strength Through a veil of crimson lace We create our fates Crafting a newrising faith   You are sinuous masculinity Projecting tantric virility This is a fulcrum of possibility A dance with divinity   Gender binaries implode Sex presence explodes I taste the fire of your soul You […]

HYDRAULIC SEX

You are thunder amidst the rain You swim in the river that keeps me sane Erotic power flows through your veins We recover from apocalypse With whatever remains   Your image evokes the carnal Licentious gym sex You pulsate with intensity You flirt and seduce–grind and flex   Deep within […]

NEURODIVERGENT

  What if my evolving diagnosis Is so much more than pathology? What if it’s not illness? What if its capacity?   I feel these burning questions Reverberating karmically I feel the power of empathy Fractals of neurodivergent chemistry   These fractals of psychotropic water Synaptic fluid pregnant with power […]